Chapter 3: By a Fiery Intention
A recently translated Dead Sea Scroll records a disciple asking Jesus, “Master, how can we get into the kingdom of Heaven?” Jesus answers, “Follow the birds, the beasts, the fish, and they will lead you in.” A very strange saying. What does Jesus mean by saying, “Follow the birds, the beasts, the fish, and they will lead you in”? He means you have to be lost like the birds are lost - they don’t have any self in them. The fish does not know that she is separate from the ocean: she is the ocean. The bird has no idea of any self, of any ego: when flying in the sky he is the sky. When alive he is life, when dead he is death. He does not cling, he does not hoard, he is not worried, he feels no responsibility. He is not: that’s what Jesus means. If you want to know God you will have to disappear as you are.
That’s what I mean by “the revolution”: you will have to disappear as you are. You will have to become innocent, so much so that there is no self in you. When there is a self you are always cunning; the self is the root cunningness. With the self you cannot be innocent. If with the self you are innocent, that innocence will be nothing but a cultivated innocence, plastic, synthetic, false, a pretension, nothing but hypocrisy. Yes, you can pretend to be innocent, but that is not going to help you at all. The self can only pretend. When the self disappears you are innocent. Innocence is meditation, innocence is prayer, innocence is all.
Kabir calls his path the path of sahaj yoga, the yoga of spontaneity. He says be innocent, spontaneous, and totality will follow.
The stillness of God is not apart from the dance of our every day, it is at the heart of it. It is not by leaving the world that we come upon the heart of it, but rather by abandoning ourselves to the dance, by living fully and fearlessly at each and every stage of ourselves that we move to the next stage. Or rather, we find ourselves moved as the bud finds itself a flower or the ungainly caterpillar is suddenly a winged thing, a honey-taster, a wanderer in summer gardens.
These words have to be remembered: innocence, spontaneity - innocence like the bees and the birds, spontaneity like the fish and the flower. Utter selflessness.and you have arrived.
You have been told that if you seek you shall find. But I say unto you: don’t believe he who claims to have sought and found, but only he who has found without seeking. Seeking is basically the self. If you seek, that means the self is functioning. The journey starts in seeking, but ends in a non-seeking mind. The journey starts with intention, but ends in spontaneity. You have to learn two things: first you have to learn a great intensity to search and then, very paradoxically, you will have to learn to drop that intensity and that seeking. Without intense search you will never move. And with that search and that intensity you will remain confined in the self.
So these are the two steps - paradoxical, but immensely valuable. And they have an inner consistency; from the outside it is not visible. First you have to seek and search. Jesus says: Ask and it shall be given, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened unto you. This is the beginning of the journey: intensity, intention, search. But this is only the beginning.
The second step is, Lao Tzu says: Seek and you shall not find. Don’t seek, and find. These are not two separate paths, these two steps are on the same path.