Chapter 7: Black-Nosed Buddha
So love can be helpful because love will prepare you for death, and love will prepare you for meditation also. In meditation you have to lose - the other is not there - you simply have to lose yourself. Love is deeper than death; meditation is even deeper than love, because the other is still there in love - you have something to cling to. And when you can cling, something of you survives.
But in meditation there is no other. That is why Buddha, Mahavira and Lao Tzu, they deny the existence of God. Why? They know very well God is, but they deny the existence so that you have no support left for meditation. If the other is there, your meditation can become at the most love, devotion, but the total death is still not experienced. Total death is possible only when there is no other and you simply dissolve, you simply evaporate; there is nobody to cling to - then the greatest ecstasy happens.
The word ecstasy is very meaningful. This English word ecstasy is so beautiful and so significant; no other language has such a word. Ecstasy means to stand outside. Ecstasy means you are completely dead, and you are standing outside yourself and looking at this death, as if your whole existence has become a corpse. You are out of it and looking at your own death; then the supreme bliss happens. If I say it to you, you will be scared. If I say to you that you are in search of the supreme death, you will be scared - but you are in search of it. The whole of religion is the art of learning how to die.
Love means death, but attachment is not death. Love means the other has become so significant that you can dissolve yourself; you trust the other so much that you need not have your own mind - you can put it aside.
This is why people say love is mad, and people say love is blind; it is. Not that your eyes go blind, but when you put your ego aside, your mind aside, to everybody else you will look blind and mad. This is the state of madness. You are not thinking on your own. You trust the other so much that now there is no need to think, because thinking is needed if there is doubt. Doubt creates thinking, doubt is the base of thinking. If you cannot doubt, thinking stops. If you cannot think, where is the ego, how can the ego stand? That is why ego always doubts things, never trusts.
If you trust, no ego appears - the ego is gone. Hence the insistence of all religions that only through faith and trust and love will you enter the temple of the divine - there is no other door to it. Through doubt you cannot enter, because through doubt you remain. In trust you are lost.
Love is a trust, a dissolving of the ego. The center moves to the other. The other becomes so significant - your very life, your very being. Not even a flicker of doubt comes to you. It is so peaceful, so beautiful, that not a flicker of doubt comes to you, not a ripple in the mind. Trust is complete, perfect. In that perfect trust there is a beatitude, a blessing. Even if you think about it you will have a small glimpse of it, what it can be. But if you feel it, it is tremendous, there is nothing like it.