Chapter 6: There Is No Meaning
And the same is true about space - in space there is either left or right. If you lean toward the left it is outside, if you lean toward the right it is also outside. But if you gain a balance between the two, suddenly you are in. The middle point is within you, it is not a part of space outside. In fact, the present and the middle are together. Whenever you are in the present you are in the middle, whenever you are in the middle you are in the present. The middle is not a position outside you. It is an inner phenomenon just like the present.
So when I say or Lao Tzu says, “Be balanced,” we are not saying make balance a static phenomenon in your life. It cannot be static, you will have to continuously maintain it, moving to the left and the right. In that movement sometimes you will pass the innermost point of your being and suddenly you will be in the middle. And suddenly you will find an implosion - not an explosion. Implosion. Something inside implodes; suddenly you are no more the same. Whenever you pass the position of the middle inside, you are no more the same - you become intensely alive, you become intensely innocent, you become intensely pure and holy. In that moment there exists no darkness for you, no sin, no guilt. You are divine, you are godliness whenever you can find that balance. But you cannot find it once and for all - no. Life is always a constant balancing, a continuity, a continuum. You cannot make it a commodity that you purchased once and now it is always there in your house. No. If you are not aware you will miss it again and again.
This is the first part of your question: the middle is not a fixed point outside. You can reach it from either point, or try to gain a balance moment to moment between the opposites - hate in love, anger in compassion.
Go on balancing between the opposites. By and by you will come to feel the knack of it. Somewhere between hate and love it happens. I say “somewhere” - the point cannot be figured out; it is such an alive phenomenon that you cannot pinpoint it. It is just like butterflies flying in the garden - if you catch a butterfly and pin it down it is dead. You can pin it down but it is no more a butterfly, the life has left it.
Just like a butterfly is the inner balance, you cannot pin it down. That’s why it is indefinable, elusive. Says Lao Tzu: The Tao that can be said is no more Tao. The truth that can be uttered has already become untrue. Indian scriptures say “that” cannot be known by scriptures. Nayam atma pravachanen labhya. You cannot understand “that” by any verbal communication. “That” is elusive because it is so alive. By the time you reach it the butterfly has gone. Just go and see. Move in the garden. You come nearer and nearer and the butterfly is getting ready to take off. When you are nearly at the point of catching it, it has left the flower, it is already on another tree. You cannot pin it down. If you can, it is dead.
I was reading just yesterday one of the very perceptive poets of the West, Wallace Stevens. In one of his maxims he says Aristotle is a skeleton. I liked it. Logic is a skeleton. Logic is always of the dead, of death. It does not belong to life. Anything fixed is always dead - that’s why I say marriage is a butterfly pinned down; love is an alive phenomenon.