Chapter 27: Just Being
Who Is In the Way?
When Master Jui Yen was dwelling constantly in his room, he would call to himself, “Boss!”
And also respond to himself, “Yes?”
“Hereafter, don’t fall for people’s deceptions.”
Just arouse yourself right here, and see what it is. The one who does the arousing isn’t anyone else, he’s just the one that can recognize dimness and dullness. He’s your own fundamental identity. This is me giving medicine to suit the disease, having no other alternative; briefly pointing out the road for you to return home and sit in peace, and that’s all. If you stick to dead words, and say it really is your fundamental identity, then you’re acknowledging the conscious spirit as your self, and this has even less to do with it. What I said before about depending on dimness and dullness to enter is this. Simply see what the one who can know dimness and dullness like this ultimately is. Just look right here, don’t seek transcendent enlightenment. Just observe and observe: suddenly you’ll laugh aloud. Beyond this, there’s nothing that can be said.
Who is in the way? Nobody else except yourself. You are blocking, standing in the way of your own enlightenment. Nobody else can block the way, because the way is inwards. It is accessible only to you and absolutely to you. But how can you block the way?
It is not your real identity - because that is the goal - but your false personality, in which you have started believing as the real.You believe you have a certain name, you believe you have a certain caste, a certain profession, a certain religion, a certain nationality, but when you were born did you have any of these things? You were simply there without any identity. You were, but there was no idea of ‘I’, there was no ego.
The ego is blocking the way.
The whole science of meditation is to take away the ego - and then you don’t even have to travel the way. Once the ego is no longer there, not only is the ego gone, but the way disappears too.
Suddenly you recognize.you are it; you are the treasure that you were seeking before. But you lost your treasure, forgot about it, because you become so much involved in seeking, searching, finding. Naturally, all seeking, all searching, all finding is outside.
Inside there is no space to move; there is only space enough to be still, unmoving, silent. That is your reality.