Chapter 4: Mind: An Expert Coward
When you go back, tell him there is still time, because meditation can be learnt at any age, even on the deathbed. Meditation does not need any effort, it needs relaxation. It does not need any muscular power, all that it needs is a restful consciousness. Hence it can be done by a child, it can be done by a young man, it can be done by an old man, very easily. It is the simplest phenomenon in the world.
Self-realization is not difficult at all. It appears to be difficult because we never try to get in tune with our own being. We have forgotten the language, that’s all, but it can be remembered.
When you go back to him, tell him to meditate. Even though he is old it can still happen. It is never too late, there is always time, because it can happen in an instant. It does not take time to happen; it is not a gradual process.
Self-realization is a process of sudden enlightenment. If one can relax totally in the moment, if one can put the mind aside and just be - silent, aware - one can become self-realized in the last moment of life too.
When you go back to him give him this message and tell him, “Now you are eighty-two years old, don’t be afraid of losing your respectability - soon you will be losing your life! And don’t be worried about your so-called scholarship and your learnedness; all will be taken away by death. It is better to drop it on your own - that’s what meditation is - rather than to allow death to snatch it away. Then it hurts. If you drop it on your own it does not hurt at all, it becomes a flowering. When death takes it away it leaves a wound behind. When you drop it there is grace, there is freedom; an immense weightlessness arises in you.”
And certainly he loves me, he respects me, if he says that: “If there is any person who is realized then he feels that you are the only person who is realized - far beyond J. Krishnamurti and Swami Vivekananda.”
Then he should gamble a little bit with me. Then he should risk a little bit. Then he should walk a few steps with me, and I promise him that it can happen. It cannot be explained, but I can help him to experience it.
And you say: “However he cannot praise you openly as the Arya Samaj people would be upset and flabbergasted.” So what? Let them be upset and flabbergasted - that is their problem! Soon he will be dying and then these Arya Samaj people are not going with him, remember. If he can have a communion with me, it will be something that he can carry beyond death. If he learns meditation then he will have some riches that will not be destroyed by death. Otherwise power, prestige, money, respectability, scholarship - all will be burnt in the funeral pyre, and you will be going naked, empty-handed.
I can help you to become so over-full with the inner, with the transcendental, that death will be absolutely incapable of destroying it.
You say: “He loves your vegetarianism, but feels that the expression of love that happens so openly and spontaneously amongst your sannyasins amounts to non-vegetarian cannibalism.” Vegetarianism is the only thing that traditional people can easily appreciate in my commune, hence I am thinking to drop it! My reasons are totally different from their reasons: my commune is vegetarian purely for aesthetic reasons - it is ugly to kill. It is just an aesthetic approach.