Chapter 7: Beyond the Error of Experiencing
Once you have understood that you are not the doer and you are the watcher, the second thing happens spontaneously: renunciation, sannyas, vairagya. The second is: now whatsoever you were doing before, you cannot do. You were getting involved too much in many things because you were thinking you are the body, because you were thinking you are the mind. Now you know that you are neither the body nor the mind, many activities that you were following and chasing and getting mad about simply drop. That dropping is vairagya; that is sannyas, renunciation.
Your vision, your vivek, your understanding, brings a transformation: that is vairagya. And when vairagya is complete another peak arises, which is kaivalya - for the first time you know who you are. But the first step of identification leads you astray; then once you have taken the first step, once you have ignored your separation and you have got caught in the identity, then it goes on and on and on. One step leads to another, then to another, and you are more and more in the mire and in the mess.
Let me tell you one anecdote:
Two young friends were breaking into society and young Cohen had high hopes of marrying an heiress. To give him moral support he took young Levy along with him to meet the girl’s parents. The parents smiled at young Cohen and said, “We understand you are in the clothing business?”
Cohen nodded nervously and said, “Yes, in a small way.”
Levy slapped him on the back and said, “He is so modest, so modest. He has twenty-seven shops and is negotiating for more.”
The parents said, “We understand you have an apartment?”
Cohen smiled, “Yes, a modest couple of rooms.”
Young Levy started laughing, “Modesty, modesty! He has a penthouse in Park Lane.”
The parents continued, “And you have a car?”
“Yes,” said Cohen. “Quite a nice one.”
“Quite nice nothing!” interjected Levy. “He has three Rolls-Royces, and that is only for town use.”
Cohen sneezed. “Do you have a cold?” asked the anxious parents. “Yes, just a slight one,” replied Cohen.
“Slight, nothing!” yelled Levy. “Tuberculosis!”
One step leads to another, and once you have taken a wrong step, your life becomes an exaggeration of that wrong; it is mirrored and reflected in millions of ways. And if you don’t correct it there, you can go on correcting all over the world, you will not be able to correct it.