Chapter 12: Kundalini Will Transform You
It is true that the body will feel light after this meditation. This is because our sense of the body is one of heaviness. What we call heaviness is nothing more than our sense of the body. The body weighs heavy on a sick person even if he is skinny and wiry. But a healthy person, even if he is a heavyweight, carries his body very lightly. So it is really our body-consciousness which feels like a weight on us.
We become conscious of our body only when it is in pain, when it is suffering. We become conscious of our feet when they are hurting. We become aware of our head when it is aching. If there is no body pain, we are never aware of our body. This consciousness is the measure of our suffering.
We define a healthy person as one who feels as if he is bodiless. Someone who does not feel that they are a body, who has a feeling of bodiless-ness, is really a healthy person. And if they are identified with a particular part of their body, it can be said that that part of their body is sick.
As the amount of oxygen increases and as the kundalini awakens, you will begin to have experiences that are not of the body; they belong to the soul or the atman. And because of these subtle experiences you will simultaneously feel lightness, an extraordinary kind of weightlessness. Many people will feel as if they are levitating. Not that they really levitate - an event of actual levitation takes place only once in a long while. But because of the feeling of utter weightlessness, you feel that you are levitating. If you open your eyes and look, you will find that you are sitting on the ground. But why is there this feeling of levitation?
The fact is that our mind, in its inmost depths, does not know any language as such. It knows only the language of pictures, symbols. So when you experience weightlessness, utter weightlessness, your mind expresses it in the language of pictures. It does not say verbally that it is weightlessness, it pictures it as an act of levitation, it feels levitation.
Our deeper mind, our unconscious mind, does not think in words, it thinks in pictures, in symbols. That is why our dreams in the night have only pictures and hardly any words. The dreaming mind has to transform everything - including experiences and thoughts - into pictures. This is why we find it so difficult to understand our dreams when we wake up in the morning. The language we know and use in the waking hours is utterly different from the pictorial language of dreams. The two are total strangers to each other, and so we need pundits, psychologists and psychiatrists to interpret them for us. We cannot manage it without them.
For example, someone is ambitious. How will he express his ambition when he is dreaming? He will become a bird on the wing soaring high in the sky. Then he will be above everything, leaving the whole world behind him. Ambition in dreams takes the form of flights - one dreams that he is flying and flying. All ambitious men have dreams of flying. But the word ambition will never find a place in dreams. So after waking up in the morning, the person wonders why he was flying in his dreams.
It s his ambition turned into a flying bird in dreams.