A spiritual being means an innocent being, and innocence requires that you should not be divided. So there should be no goal and no idea of becoming somebody or something else, but just a deep acceptance and a delight in whatsoever you are, and a celebration – so that you can flow, you can be. In unknown ways you become spiritual – not that you try; it is a consequence of being total.
If you see a crippled human being under a spirituality, then know that something has gone wrong. If you can find a man who is totally human, alive, dynamic, flowing – he may not have even heard the word spirituality, may never have been to any temple, read any Bible or Gita – there is the man. Bow to him, and touch his feet, because something has flowered there.
To be religious is not to impose a structure; rather, on the contrary, it is to reveal the being that you are already.
So go and think about it. It is up to you. Whatsoever I say is not meant to direct you. If you feel like being in that group, remain in it; it must be giving you something. You may need to be in it a little while longer. But if you feel that it is not worthwhile, if you feel that you have to sacrifice something – then sacrifice and get out of it. To be in anything that you start feeling is wrong is to be suicidal, because by and by you become hypocritical. Never be in any situation where you cannot be total. Escape from it; it is dangerous because it is dividing you.
I know a catholic missionary who is fed up with his work and can see the whole nonsense of it – but he cannot get out of it. He is on a good salary, has a good house to live in, a car, prestige. Now this I see as very dangerous. There can be some security, some comfort and convenience in it, but one has to gather courage to be true to oneself.
If you feel it is wrong, get out of it. But never sell your soul for any comfort whatsoever.
Last time I was here I took sannyas. I was not sure I wanted to take it, but I took your advice. I took sannyas, and I’m glad. It’s been good. Tonight I start a group, Unconditional Acceptance. I think I need to accept(you talk about being total, and I don t feel I’m a total sannyasin.
It will become total. You have taken the first step, the other things will follow. You do this group – it will be very very helpful; it will bring many things to your consciousness. And after the group you will feel very very relaxed.
So in the group, don’t be shy and don’t feel embarrassed. Whatsoever is the truth, allow it and accept it. Don’t condemn it and say that “this is not good, I should not say that, I should not accept that this is true in me.”