Let it come and go, but don’t be worried about it. When it comes, take note, that’s all, and in a very indifferent way.
In Buddhism they have a particular method which they call taking notice thrice. If a problem arises – for example, if somebody suddenly feels a sexual urge, or greed, or anger – they have to note three times that it is there. If anger is there, the disciple has to say inwardly three times: anger, anger, anger. Just to take complete note of it so that it doesn’t miss the consciousness, that’s all. Then he goes on with whatsoever he was doing, mm? He doesn’t do anything with the anger but simply notes it thrice.
It is tremendously beautiful. Immediately you become aware of it, take note of it, it is gone. It cannot take grip of you because that can only happen when you are unconscious. This calling thrice makes you so aware inside, that you are separate from the anger. You can objectify it, because it is there and you are here. Buddha told his disciples to do this with everything.
Just try it, and there is nothing to worry about. It is human, and there is nothing to feel guilty about. It is good that you know it comes – don’t repress it. Ordinarily, all the cultures and civilizations have been teaching us to repress problems, so that by and by you become unconscious of them – so much so that you forget them, you think that they don’t exist.
Just the opposite is the right way. Make them absolutely conscious, and in becoming conscious and focusing on them, they melt. So try this, and don’t miss a single moment. Just repeat three times “again, again, again.” You have to repeat it inside, and if you feel it is helpful, you can repeat it out loud, so your husband will also know – “again, again, again!”
It is going to go, and when it does you will feel really relieved. You already look better When one is unburdened by these vagrant desires and ideas, one feels more innocent and pure. That fragrance surrounds you, and by and by life becomes a totally different song, a totally different dance.
So now start this!
I’m finding it difficult to enjoy my work, typing. I know it shouldn’t matter what I’m doing, but still I find I am fighting against myself all day, telling myself that the work has to be done and is useful. I work without enthusiasm, without passion. Will you help me to find a more positive attitude?