It doesn’t make any difference from which door you attain to nothingness. All doors belong to it. Use whichever door you love, because ultimately it is your love that will be able to take you to the depths – to the depths where you become willing to disappear. Nothing other than love can ever make you willing to disappear.
So it is good, it is fortunate that you are a musician. Drown into music. Let only music remain and you will reach. You will not even notice when you arrive. It is only upon reaching that you will realize, “Oh, where am I? Only godliness is! Where am I? Only existence is!”
But to ride two horses simultaneously is dangerous. And in spiritual life, many people unknowingly start riding several horses at the same time. They reach nowhere. They only fracture their limbs and end up in some hospital. One horse is enough. In order to attain to one, one alone is enough. The duality has to be forfeited, and you are trying to ride the duality.