Of course, both are hard. And whatsoever you choose will appear harder than the one that you have not chosen. But nothing can be done; one has to choose sooner or later. You have to commit your being to a certain path. The only wrong that you can do is to remain indecisive. The only sin that you can commit with yourself is to remain indecisive and postpone.
Don’t be indecisive. Decide. Even if sometimes you commit mistakes, nothing is wrong in them. By committing mistakes you will learn much. Nobody learns without committing mistakes. Even if you go astray, don’t be afraid. Go with courage. Go alert. Sooner or later you will realize that you have gone astray. You can come back.
And whenever you come back after wandering, committing many mistakes, you will see that your consciousness has been enriched. If you simply sit in your home and never move because of the fear that something may go wrong, you may do something wrong…. If you remain tethered to the place where you are, of course you will not commit any mistakes, but your life will be a life of unfulfillment. You can avoid mistakes, but in avoiding mistakes you will be avoiding all those beautiful experiences that life can give to you. This is an escape.
Be courageous. Have the courage to be.
There are many people, millions of people, who simply miss their life because of the fear that something may go wrong. And this is the only wrong, this is the only mistake. They go on hiding, they go on escaping from situations. Wherever they find a possibility of a wrong movement, they stop all movement. They never grow. They remain immature.
There is nothing wrong in committing mistakes. Just remember one thing: don’t commit the same mistake again and again; that’s enough. Each mistake brings a lesson. Each going astray is coming to the right path in a deep way.
I have heard one anecdote:
Two Jews were up against the wall, hands tied behind their backs, waiting to be shot. The officer in charge of the firing-squad came to them and asked curtly, “Do you want a final cigarette?”
The first Jew replied, “Keep your cigarette, you murdering bum!”
Whereupon the second Jew whispered anxiously, “Quiet, Jack, quiet. Don’t make trouble.”
When you are going to be shot, what difference does it make to create trouble or not to create trouble?
Death is approaching. Everybody is tied against the wall to be shot. Don’t be afraid. Whether you are afraid or not makes no difference – death is approaching. Even if you don’t do anything, death will come – it is already coming. The days are shortening every day. Your life is being cut every day. You are being uprooted from life every day.
For what are you waiting? Do something. Be decisive.