Just think of Michelangelo…. Life is like that. It brings surprises each moment. You go on missing – you go on missing because you can’t see those surprises. You are so full of expectations, you are so full of ready-made answers, you go on interpreting it according to your own mind. You pass through a miraculous world, dull, dead, dragging. This world is nothing but miracles and miracles, and each moment they are happening. And not in a miserly way is the existence miraculous – it is overflowing with miracles. But you have to be again a little child, you have to be again innocent.
It is not a question of method, not a question of how. It is more a question of understanding the very process of how the mind functions. And when you have understood how the mind functions, you will put it aside. Then there is no barrier between you and reality. And when there is no barrier, there is no separation either – because it is the barrier that separates. When there is no barrier, you are one with reality. In that oneness, the reality reveals its secrets to you.
The third question:
Do I have to forget myself to lose my ego?
It is not a question of forgetting yourself – on the contrary, it is a question of remembering yourself. What is the ego? Ego exists because you have forgotten yourself, because you don’t remember who you are. And it is very difficult to live without some idea of who you are. Not knowing the reality of your being, you have to create a false substitute.
What is the ego? Ego is the false substitute that you have created for the self. It is not your self, but it is very difficult to live without a self – it will be almost impossible to live without a self. Some kind of self is needed, is a must; otherwise, how will you keep yourself together? You will start falling apart.
Even if the center is false, it helps you. Even a false center keeps you at least somehow together. You have forgotten yourself – hence you need the ego.
If you remember yourself, there will be no need for the ego.
You ask, Eva: “Do I have to forget myself to lose my ego?” Ego is not anything real that you have to lose or you can lose – you don’t have it in the first place. It is just an idea, a shadow; it is non-existential. It is like your name: when you were born, you did not come with a name. Then somebody – your mother, your father, your family – started calling you “Eva.” Some name is needed to call you by; it is utilitarian.