You think you are here because of the society; you think you are here because of morality, and all the nonsense that goes with it; you think you are here because of your Bible, Koran, Gita. No! Nature exists without any laws. It has its own intrinsic laws, but they are not laws passed by men. They don’t need your sanction; they are there, and life goes on following them. If you don’t interfere you will reach the goal immediately; if you interfere then you will be in trouble. So if you are in trouble, anguish and suffering, then know well that you have been interfering with nature. Nothing is possible unless you stop interfering.
This is the whole message of Chuang Tzu: Don’t interfere with nature. Allow it, move with it, trust it. You come out of it; it is your mother, it is the source; and one day you will go back to it – it is the ultimate goal. And in the meantime, why create interference, why fight? This fighting is now almost ingrained.
You will have to go back to your childhood, you will have to regress. You will have to re-live those moments when society entered and forced you to interfere. So remember one basic thing: whenever something wrong happens on the path of life, you cannot just dissolve it by intellectual understanding – it is not so easy. It has become your life pattern. It is in your body and in your bones; you will have to go back. If you really want to become natural you will have to re-live the past – by and by move backwards.
All meditative methods help you to go back. Lie down in your bed at night and make it a one-hour effort every day. In the beginning it will be an effort, but soon effortlessness will happen and you will enjoy it. The more you go back, the more you will feel free and great.
Nature is vast, and all man-created laws are narrow. They are like tunnels: the more you move into them the narrower they become. And a moment comes of cul-de-sac – you cannot move anywhere, and the tunnel becomes your grave. That is how everyone is stuck.
If you really want to get unstuck, at night, before falling asleep, close your eyes and just go back and try to re-live the past. Move slowly, there is no hurry; you cannot do it in one day – it will take almost three months. Move slowly. Re-live – do not just remember. Remembering will not help because remembering is intellectual – you remain aloof, it doesn’t touch you. Re-live.
What do I mean when I say re-live? Just go back as if it is happening again. In the beginning it will be ‘as if’, but soon it becomes real. Incomplete, your suppressed being is there, struggling to become free. Just go back, and soon, within three weeks, you will reach the point where you will know this barrier. Beyond this barrier you will know you were free, natural, and this barrier created the whole trouble. Since this you have never been natural. Somewhere you will find your mother, your father, standing at the barrier – that is why you have forgotten so completely.