If I see my body from without, I see it as it looks to others also. I have not known it as it is for me. And that point from within can only be known to me, and nobody else can know it. My hand, from the outside – you can see it and I can see it. It has become something objective. When you can participate and share the knowledge with me, then this hand as seen from that direction is not mine. It has become public property. You too can know it as much as I can know it.
Only the moment I see it from within, does it become mine in a way which is unsharable. You cannot know how I feel it from within. Only I can know it. So the body that is known to us is not the body that is ours. It is the body that is objectively known to all. It is the body which a physician can know in a laboratory. It is not the body which only I am entitled to know.
Only the private dimension can lead you inward; the public dimension cannot lead you inward. That is why physiology or psychology, which are observations from without, have not lead us to knowledge of our other inner bodies – because this, the first, is the only body which is shareable. The second is absolutely private. And this physical body, too, as it is from within is not shareable. From without only, from the periphery, is it shareable.
So that is why so many dilemmas are created. One may feel from within a beauty, which is an inner feeling. He may think himself beautiful and no one else is convinced of it. Then there is a dilemma. Ordinarily everyone sees himself as beautiful; no one sees himself as ugly. We may force on someone, that he is ugly, and if we are collectively agreed upon it, he may agree too. But no one feels ugly from within, because from within the body is always beautiful. The inner feeling is always of beauty.
The outward feeling is not a feeling, but a fashion, a criterion imposed from without. A person who is beautiful in a particular society may be ugly in another. A particular shape of the face may be beautiful in a particular period of history, may not be in another. These are criteria imposed from without, but the innermost feeling is always of beauty.
So if there is no criteria, no outside criteria, then there will be no ugliness – even outwardly. We have a fixed image of beauty and everyone has to be compared to it. That’s why there is ugliness and beauty; otherwise not. If we all became blind, then there would be no one ugly. Everyone would be beautiful. No one can say that it would be a loss; it might prove a great benefit.
The feeling of the body from within is the first step, and you can be aware of it in any situation. And in different situations you are not always the same from within either. When you are in love, the inner feeling is different; when you are in hate, the inner feeling is different. So if you ask a buddha he will say, “Love is beauty” – not that…not in our ways of thinking, but in his inner feeling. He knows when he is loving he is beautiful.
The inner feeling of the body is of beauty. When there is hatred, when there is anger, when there is jealousy, then something happens inwardly which becomes ugly. You can feel it in different situations, in different moments, in different states of mind.