When you doubt, and you go on doubting to the very end, to the very logical end, sooner or later you will stumble upon a truth. Doubt is groping in darkness, but the door exists. If Buddha could get to the door, if Jesus could get to it, if Atisha could get to it, if I can get to it, why can’t you? Everybody is capable of getting to the door – but you are afraid of groping, so you sit in your dark corner believing in somebody who has found the door. You have not seen that somebody, you have heard about him from others who have heard it from others, and so on, so forth.
How do you believe in Jesus? Why? You have not seen Jesus! And even if you had seen him you would have missed. The day he was crucified, thousands had gathered to see him, and do you know what they were doing? They were spitting on his face! You may have been in that crowd, because that crowd was not different at all. Man has not changed.
Darwin says man has evolved out of the monkeys. Maybe, but since then evolution seems to have stopped. It must have been an accident, some monkey must have fallen from the tree and could not get back. Maybe he was fractured or became so afraid of falling again, he started living on the earth. When you live in the trees you can live with all your four hands or four legs, but when you live on the earth you have to stand on two legs.
Because the monkey was able to look all over the place from the trees – he had always lived that way, looking all over the place – there was no danger, he could see far away. Once he was on the ground, living on all fours was dangerous. He could not see all around, he could see only just two, three feet in front of him, and he was afraid – that was not his way of living. He had lived always in a kind of security in the trees, looking all over the place. Wherever the enemy was, he was aware; he could protect himself. Out of sheer fear he had to stand on two legs. Just think of that hilarious situation: a monkey trying to stand on two legs! All the monkeys must have laughed uproariously, “Look at that fool, what he is trying to do!”
Since then evolution seems to have stopped. Nothing has happened since then. Man has lived almost in the same way, his mind has not changed. Yes, things have changed: we live in better houses with better plumbing…I am not talking about India!
Some sannyasin has just asked me, “Osho, You say life is beautiful. I could have believed – but two things: women and Indian plumbing, they don’t allow me to believe in it.” Women can be changed – but Indian plumbing? No!
We have better roads and better vehicles to carry you from one place to another, great technology – man has landed on the moon – but man has not changed. That’s why I say many of you must have been in the crowd that was spitting on Jesus, many of you must have been in the crowd that was witnessing Mansoor’s murder, and were throwing stones at the murdered mystic. You have not changed.
How can you believe in Jesus, when you were spitting on his face when he was alive; and now you believe in him, after two thousand years? It is just a desperate effort to hide your doubt. Why do you believe in Jesus?