I could see it was going to be difficult – the way she came, the way she sat…. And finally, when I called her close to me, she refused to come close. She stood up with raised hands and said, “I am Jesus Christ!” I didn’t say anything to her, although I wanted to say, “So, old chap, you are back again! Have you forgotten what happened the last time? Maybe that’s why you have come in the form of a woman this time.” And declaring that she is Jesus Christ, she walked away.
Faith creates these types of neurotics. Christianity has many neurotic people, because the whole idea depends on faith: “Believe in Jesus Christ, have faith in him! He will deliver you!” – as if he is responsible for your bondage! He can deliver you only if he has put you in the prison; otherwise, how can he deliver you? He is the savior and you are the saved; he is the shepherd and you are the sheep. Don’t you see the indignity involved in it? You become just sheep. All the religions, more or less, have been doing this. If you believe in persons, you will be reduced into sheep – you will not be human beings. Your humanity is destroyed. You are imprisoned in very subtle, invisible prisons. You cannot see them, they are transparent.
Buddha says: Be a light unto yourself. Don’t believe in persons, don’t believe in ideologies. And when you don’t believe in any ideology, and you don’t believe in any person, a great trust explodes, a trust in existence itself – in the trees, in the rocks, in the people, in the stars, rivers, mountains, in all that is. Of course, the buddhas are part of it, but you don’t believe in the Buddha particularly. You simply believe in existence. You believe in the fragrance of a Jesus. But this belief is not rooted in any idea. In fact, it is something subjective, it has nothing to do with any object.
If you believe in Jesus you cannot believe in Krishna. If you believe in Krishna you cannot believe in Mahavira. Naturally, if you believe in one you have to disbelieve in all others. That’s how belief divides people. And the whole history is full of blood, murder, crusades. It is full of blood and violence in the name of religion, because you have been told to believe one against all others.
Trust is totally different. If you trust existence…existence implies Jesus as much as Krishna, as Buddha, as Zarathustra. They are all part of it. And you don’t believe only in buddhas, you believe in the ordinary people that surround you too; not only people but animals, trees, rocks. It is not a question of what you believe in – the object becomes irrelevant. You simply have a trusting heart, a great trust that we belong to this existence, we are part of this miraculous existence, that this existence cannot be unfriendly to us. It has given birth to us, and how can the mother be unfriendly?
This is a totally different meaning to trust. It is neither belief nor faith. Remember these two words because they are again and again translated wrongly.
He who goes naked,
with matted hair, mud-bespattered,
who fasts and sleeps on the ground
and smears his body with ashes
and sits in endless meditation –
so long as he is not free from doubts,
he will not find freedom.