The harmony I feel with you, the vision of love and flowering, trembles within me. I feel a giving of everything to this wonderful gift of life. Something is happening through me or with me or in spite of me – and I know this is home.
Beloved master, beloved mystery, who am I?
The mystery of life always happens in spite of you. In the beginning there is no other alternative possible. Only in the end does it start happening through you. But it can happen through you only when you are not. Then you become a hollow bamboo which can be turned into a flute and the song can pass through it.
In the beginning you are – you are too much.
So when the first experience of mystery starts happening it is in spite of you. And it is good to understand that life is far bigger than you can conceive and its power is immense beyond our any conception; just we are waiting patiently, searching patiently, knowing perfectly well that we don’t know the way, knowing perfectly well that we have lost our original eternal home – knowing perfectly well that we are unconscious. All our efforts, our search, our seeking is groping in the dark.
It is good to remember our situation. Do your best. In spite of your darkness, blindness, unconsciousness, whatever you can do, do. But remember, it is not going to happen through your doing. It is going to happen because you are longing for it so deeply that existence cannot resist, cannot remain indifferent to you.
So although you are not prepared, nobody is prepared. Nobody knows the way, nobody knows where the home is, nobody knows in which direction to move, what discipline to follow.
But there are two kinds of people: those who are not aware of their situation of darkness and blindness, and those who think that they are not blind, that they are not in darkness; that they know the way, that they know where they have to go, that they know what they have to do.
These are the people to whom existence cannot happen; they are too much. And all that they know is absolutely false, they have not experienced it. But their falsity is so much identified with their being, it is their ego which says, “You are not blind. There is no darkness and all that is needed you know it through the scriptures, through the old masters, through reading, learning, studying.” But all that is borrowed; it is not going to help.
No two persons reach the end on the same route. Hence Gautam Buddha may have reached through a certain path and Chuang Tzu may have reached through another path, but their paths are no longer useful for you. In fact, it is impossible to find their paths either. Their paths disappear just as the birds flying in the sky don’t leave any footmarks.