I told him, “If you become a witness with a partisan view – for brahmacharya, against sex – you cannot become a witness. And if you cannot become a witness, sexuality cannot disappear. Become a witness: sexuality will disappear, but remember, brahmacharya will also disappear with it. There is no need of brahmacharya when sexuality disappears. It is part of the same game. What is the need of brahmacharya? When sexuality has disappeared, when the disease has disappeared, what is the use of the medicine? It is part of the game! You will throw out the medicine with the disease. Or will you carry the medicine? – because ‘The illness has disappeared but I will carry the medicine’” So I told him, “Brahmacharya will also disappear. But remember not to choose.”
He said, “I will try.”
After three months – I told him to come back after three months – he came and he said, “But sex has not yet disappeared.” This is what I call stupidity. “Sex has not yet disappeared, and I have been practicing witnessing for three months.”
The unconscious choice remains: sex must disappear. Then you cannot be a witness. Witnessing means no choice, choiceless awareness.
This is one of the most fundamental keys for all the diseases of the human mind. If you can become a witness, the opposites fight against each other, kill each other, and both are dead, both disappear. But if you choose one of them, you cannot be a witness.
The second sutra:
Look for the warrior and let him fight in thee.
Look for him, else in the fever and hurry of the fight thou mayest pass him; and he will not know thee unless thou knowest him. If thy cry reach his listening ear, then will he fight in thee and fill the dull void within.
Look for the warrior and let him fight in thee. Don’t be the warrior, there is no need. The warrior is the phenomenon of simultaneously presenting to your consciousness both of the opposites.
Ordinarily, only one is present. When sex is present you are not thinking of brahmacharya. When brahmacharya is present, you are not thinking of sex. One is present and the other is hidden. This is the misery.
Bring out the other simultaneously, and this will become the warrior for you. Bring them out simultaneously. When you are filled with anger, immediately bring in repentance. You always repent, but later on. When you are angry, you are angry. When the anger has done its devastation, then repentance comes in and you start taking oaths: “I am not going to be angry again.” But the anger and the repentance never meet. Allow the opposites to meet. They will negate each other.
If you go on moving from one opposite to another, you will never be victorious. You have wasted many lives, and you can waste infinite lives. But this is the secret: bring the opposites out simultaneously, allow them to be simultaneously present before you. Don’t follow one. If you follow one, the other is waiting for you. When you are bored, when you get fed up with one, the other will catch hold of you.