Sit in a relaxed position and watch your breath, but don’t change the rhythm of it, just breathe as you normally do. Simply watch, go with it – breath goes into the belly…the belly comes up. You just go with it. Then for a second it stops…you stop there. Then it goes back, return journey, you come back…then it goes out…wait there for a second.
No need to force it in any way. You are not to do anything; you are just to watch. If even a slight doing comes in, then the watching is disturbed. So be totally a non-doer. And the breath goes on its own; you are not required to do anything.
That’s the difference between Buddhist breathing and yoga breathing. Buddhist breathing is tremendously beautiful. It is the breathing of a witness – nothing to be done. Yoga breathing is the breathing of a doer. You have to do something – inhale deeply, exhale deeply, count, take as much time in breathing, double time in exhaling…then it becomes a doing. The Buddhist breathing is simply to watch. And just watching the breathing tranquilizes the whole mind and being.
So do that…and it is simple. Close your eyes and relax, and forget everything outside. Do it for one hour, and then for fifteen minutes stop it. And in those fifteen minutes you can do anything – you can sing a song, or hum…or anything, but something has to be done. If you go on doing the breathing for more than one hour then it can become heavy. You can do it as much as you like, but with fifteen minutes gap.
If you go on continuously, because it is such a deep-going method, it is just like drilling a hole in you, it can become too much. You can go berserk or something in the airplane, and that will not be good
I’m going home tomorrow, too. I feel kind of afraid…of people that I want to resolve things with – family and friends. And I want to bring some of them back with me.
Remember one thing: that there are things which, if you try to do them consciously, you will fail in. There are a few things that can be done only in a very indirect way, never directly.
For example, if you have seen something, tasted something, then it is very natural that you would like to share it with your friends, your family. But don’t be too aggressive about it because that will become a barrier. In fact don’t try to convince anybody about it. Simply go there and let them see what has happened to you.
If you become too concerned about them you become nervous. If you are nervous you will become tense. If you become tense you may say that meditation gives silence, but your whole presence will show something else – that you are tense, nervous, anxious. It will be a self-defeating thing. Don’t be worried about them.