It is strange, but often it happens that the master himself understands many things for the first time while teaching it to the disciple – for the first time! Many times, helping others understand is the easiest way to understand oneself. Many times truth is experienced inside, but the experiencer himself does not fully understand what has happened. What happened? Did it happen? For seven days, Buddha kept brooding: What has happened?
When one faces truth for the first time, one is dumbfounded. One can see all, but nothing is comprehended; everything is understood, but even then nothing is understood in detail. Nothing is grasped. What has happened? That which existed until yesterday exists no more; that which never existed is present; that which was believed to be real has become a dream; that which was unknown even in dream is so real before one’s eyes. The one who started the search has disappeared and the one who has attained to this truth is unknown, is unrecognizable.
When Meister Eckhart experienced samadhi for the first time, he had asked two questions. The first was: What is happening? and the second was: To whom is it happening?
One of his disciples was near him. The disciple said, “At least this much I can tell you, that it has happened to you, so why do you ask to whom it has happened?”
Eckhart replied, “You do not know. The man who started on this search has disappeared in this happening, and the one to whom it has happened is as much a stranger as is this happening.”
Many times, what has happened only becomes clear when the master is teaching someone.
So the sage prays: Brilliant be our knowing. “May our knowing be bright. May our knowing become sharp, may the flame of our wisdom shine…may it go on shining.”
The moment never comes when one can pray to the divine: “Now it is enough.” The moment never comes when one prays to existence: “Enough! Now if you want you can dull my intelligence, that will be fine.” No, such moments never come. Wisdom is a sword with a blade which can always be made more sharp. Continuous sharpening and still…still, something remains to be sharpened. This is the endless, this is the boundless.
That is why the sage still prays: Brilliant be our knowing.
In fact the master says that there is no reason to believe that he has become a wise man, there is still more wisdom ahead; still there is ignorance. Perhaps the one who knows can see more ignorance than the one who does not know, and so he can say that there is still ignorance. But now don’t misunderstand that he really is ignorant. Don’t think that this man actually needs to ask for knowledge and brilliance. But this prayer is right and it is symbolic. It conveys that a wise man is always humble, and that he does not hesitate to pray.