Trust is a real rose. It has roots, and roots go deep into your heart and into your being. Belief is just in the head. Trust is in the heart, in your deeper world of being. To change trust is almost impossible – it has never happened, it is not known to have happened in the whole of history. If you trust, you trust; there is no possibility of its changing. And it goes on growing because it has roots. It never remains static; it is dynamic, it is a living force. It goes on growing new foliage, new flowers, new branches. Belief is a dead thing, a plastic flower; it never grows.
Hindus may have believed in a certain thing for ten thousand years – it is still there, the same; it never grows. “The cow is the mother” – Hindus have believed it for ten thousand years. The belief has not grown even to include the fact that the bull is your father! It is static. And if you mention to any Hindu that the bull is his father then he will become a bull, and prove that certainly the bull is his father! But he will not believe it; he will behave exactly like a bull, but he will not accept the fact.
All beliefs are old; all beliefs are dead. No belief grows even a single leaf. Belief is ideological, philosophical, but it is not a force that transforms your being. It can make you a great scholar, it can make you a great philosopher, theologian, but it can never make you a new man, young and fresh; it cannot give you any experience. It can bring you degrees from the universities and awards and Nobel Prizes. It can do everything, but it will not change anything in your interior, that will remain empty.
The question is even more important because it is coming from a person who has been a Buddhist for thirty years. After being a Buddhist for thirty years, the person comes to me, feels a certain trust in me, falls in love. Naturally, there is a conflict, which is bound to happen. His mind is full of thirty years of Buddhist ideology – that is the belief system – and the heart is growing fresh sprouts of trust. The person is bound to be in great difficulty. The beliefs are pulling in one direction and the trust is moving in another direction. The beliefs have a certain weight because they are thirty years old, but the trust, although it is new, has a force of its own because it is alive. The beliefs are thirty-year-old corpses. They have weight, but they don’t have any force. The person is bound to be split.
Things can be solved very easily. The first thing to remember is: if Buddhism was enough, there would have been no need to come to me. Being a Buddhist for thirty years has not done anything to you. You can be a Buddhist for thirty lives, but a belief never changes your reality. The length of time makes no difference. So the first question you have to ask yourself is why, after thirty years, you had to seek and search for some new source, for some new light, for some new indication. If you are courageous, you need not get into a conflict; you can simply see that those thirty years have gone to waste. But what is gone is gone; now don’t waste any more time on it.
And remember, I am not saying that Buddha is wrong. I am simply saying that Buddha was right only for those people who could drink out of his presence, for whom he was a master. But for you, he is only a belief.