The beginning of disciplehood is not its end. The beginning is bound to be a little false for the simple reason that you live in a world of lies. You only understand language, you don’t understand that which is beyond language; hence you have to be spoken to in words. Now to speak in words to persuade you to be silent is very paradoxical work! You understand relationship; you don’t understand love.
The master first helps you to create a relationship between himself and you, and slowly slowly he withdraws himself; as you become capable he withdraws. He helps you to become free of him.
But the misunderstanding can happen in two ways. One is that you may start clinging to the master, you may start worshipping the master; you may forget completely that he was just a finger pointing to the moon. The finger has not to be worshipped. Of course it has to be understood – and forgotten – so that you can look at the moon. If you cling to the finger, who is going to look at the moon? If you become obsessed with the finger, who is going to look at the moon?
This is one calamity. It has happened so much that a man like J. Krishnamurti has moved to the other extreme. He is constantly afraid of this calamity, naturally, because so many times it has happened that he is afraid it may happen again with him. So from the very beginning he says that there is no need for a master, that there is no need to be a disciple. Now he is being misunderstood, because only the egoist becomes interested in him – only the egoist, who is incapable of surrender, who is incapable of trust, who is absolutely obsessed with his own ego. He finds Krishnamurti very appealing. He says, “This is the right man! You need not surrender, you need not trust, you need not follow. You are absolutely free. There is no question of dropping anything: you remain yourself.” Now he clings to his ego.
This is another calamity. And Krishnamurti has emphasized the point so much that people have started clinging to the idea of non-clinging. He has scared people.
If disciplehood does not happen, then there is no question of killing the master or going beyond the master, because in the first place there has been no master.
Krishnamurti’s listeners will never be able to go beyond the master because they have never gone through the master. They will remain surrounded with their own ego walls, they will remain imprisoned in their ego. And many Krishnamurti lovers have come to me, asking me, “What to do? – because we have been listening to him for years – nothing happens! We understand whatsoever he is saying is true, but then we are the same.” Nothing is going to happen because happening is possible only if you are ready to go through this paradox. You are to begin with the master but not to end with the master.
The master is like a ladder: you use it, then a moment comes when you have to drop the ladder. You don’t cling to it. The master is like a boat. That’s what Buddha has said: the master is like a boat. You go from this shore to the other shore, but then you get out of the boat. You feel grateful to the boat, you may even thank the boat, but you need not carry the boat on your shoulders.