The person who was watching the show by his side said, “What you are giggling at? This is nothing; you should have come yesterday! The man was absolutely nuts!”
Sex has been kept hidden for centuries, in the darkness of the night, with the woman’s eyes closed. One day, at nearabout thirteen or fourteen years of age, it begins. It is a biological device for reproduction; it has nothing to do with you. You are just being used by the blind forces of biology. And if you are understanding enough, my own calculation is that by the time you are forty-two you will start feeling that sex is dropping.
Not that you have to drop it…let me insist again and again, you should never drop it – because that is the only way to keep it alive to the very last breath of your life. And what you will do by dropping it is what has been done by Hindu, Christian and Buddhist monks all over the world. They call it celibacy: a beautiful name for an ugly fact. In the name of celibacy they are repressing their sex, and sex is a vital energy because it reproduces life. You cannot repress it. It will find perverted ways to come out – in homosexuality, in sodomy. And the ultimate perversion of all the religious teaching is the disease AIDS. It is the outcome of your so-called celibacy.
But nobody is condemning the Vatican, nobody is condemning the shankaracharyas saying, “You are responsible that at least ten million people in the world today are AIDS positive sufferers.” These are the data from only the Western world, because the East has not yet the facilities, the processes, the experts to find the AIDS virus. So these ten million people belong to the Western part of the world.
Hundreds of people are dying every day because AIDS has no cure; it is slow death. For between six months and two years, you will be dying slowly. Dying quickly has a beauty about it: you don’t suffer. But hanging in limbo, knowing perfectly that there is no cure, for two years your life becomes a horrible nightmare. You don’t think about anything except death.
If you repress sex, you are not going to transform the immense energy contained in it. But if it drops through your meditations and through your understanding – by itself, with no effort on your part – it will release such a tremendous beauty and openness to your being that all you have been always dreaming and thinking will become a reality.
And Sarjano, just as I said, it is going to happen to every sannyasin. I call it celibacy only when sex drops, not before it. If you force it before it drops by itself, you are simply becoming perverted. This is a fundamental law of life: you can change the natural flow of life energy, but once it gets perverted, then it becomes very complicated. First you have to bring it back to the natural state and then only transformation is possible. Perversion cannot be transformed.