You create an inner trembling, a doubt in them, and nobody wants to be in doubt. The doubt is there. If they had known the truth there would have been no fear. They have not known the truth, they have only believed. The doubt is there, deep down in their souls, so whenever you say something that goes against them their doubt starts rising, surfacing. And they are afraid to be in doubt. Everybody wants certainty. Why? – because certainty gives security, certainty gives you confidence. Doubt makes you shaky.
And I am going to create much doubt in you because in my vision, unless doubt destroys your false certainties, there is no possibility to attain to true certainty. True certainty is not out of belief. It comes out of experience, it comes out of your own realization.
I am not anti-Jesus, I am certainly anti-Christianity. I am not anti-Buddha, I am certainly anti-Buddhist. I am not anti-Krishna but I am certainly anti-Hindu. Whatever I am saying and doing is the work of Jesus, the work of Krishna, and Buddha. Certainly not in the same language – how can it be in the same language? How can I speak Aramaic to you; how can I use the metaphors Jesus used? Those metaphors are out of date, they don’t belong to this century.
I will have to be more scientific, I will have to be more logical. Even though I want you to go beyond logic, I will have to lead you to the extreme point of logic first; only from there you can take the jump into the illogical.
I cannot talk with you the way Buddha talked; he was talking to a different audience. So my words will be different, my approaches will be different, my methodology will be different. But the moon that I am pointing to is the same. My finger is different, it’s bound to be so. If you compare my finger with Jesus’ finger, they are different – but the moon that we are pointing to is the same. Look at the moon and don’t be too much bothered by the fingers.
The second question.
I have been thinking of becoming a sannyasin for at least seven years. Why am I not able to take the jump?
It seems you are not aware of death at all. If you are aware of death you cannot postpone like that. And now, because you have been postponing for seven years, postponement must have become a habit. You have practiced it long. You have become too much attached to postponing.
Postponement gives a good feeling. First, it is not risky; you need not change. You are always going to change tomorrow, and the tomorrow never comes. So meanwhile you can remain the same as you are. The tomorrow becomes a protection, “Tomorrow I will become a sannyasin. So today, whatsoever I am, I have to be. It is only the question of one day, tomorrow I will become a sannyasin and I will take the jump.” And when tomorrow comes, it always comes as today.