And remember, you have to be very deeply loving when you hit, because resentment is a two-edged thing. If you simply hit without any love, there is more possibility for resentment to be felt. It may be particularly so for Westerners who have never thought that you can be hit and be grateful to the person who hit you – but they will start feeling it.
Your staff will have the message of love. Hit them with deep love and they will accept it in deep gratitude. By and by they will learn this new language.
I have a tension in my head like a tight band all around it. I’ve had it since I began meditating six months ago. It occurs on and off during the day but is at its most intense when I close my eyes during meditation. Then I’m aware of a great deal of tension, and my eyes begin to flicker.
[Osho instructs her on the exercise of palming the eyes, by rubbing the hands together until they are hot and then placing them over the eyes for a few minutes, after which you splash cold water on the eyes.] It will settle within a week. When you meditate too much the inner eyes become tired and need new exercise.
I also had a sore throat during the group and a sensation of fever though I didn’t actually have a temperature. I also felt sick to my stomach.
These things can be due to the process.
I also felt a sickness in my stomach and a pain like an open wound in my stomach which I noticed after the sixth day. I really had the feeling of vomiting. When it became worse and it was difficult to continue sitting, I felt like leaving. But then something seemed to happen each time and it would settle.
At that moment when you want to escape, remember to persist, because it is exactly at that moment when it is almost impossible to bear, that the door opens and suddenly energies are transformed. If you escape in that moment, you miss.
The stomach goes through changes when the mind changes because they are deeply connected. We go on suppressing emotions – anger, sadness, all negativities – in the stomach. In fact in the body we have no other place; it works like a basement into which we go on throwing all rotten things, and they accumulate. It is the only empty space in the body, so we not only stuff it with food; we stuff it with all our negativity.
Even in language we have the expression, “I can’t stomach it.” It means it is too much, that you will vomit it. So if vomiting comes it has to be allowed.