Just on the surface is friendship; deep down is enmity. Your friendship may be just a facade to hide the enemy. If you are closed you can create only the enemy, because when you are open only then is the friend revealed. When you are open totally to someone, the friendship has happened. It cannot happen in any other way.
How can you love when you are closed? You live in your prison, I live in my prison, and whenever we meet, only the prison walls touch each other and we are hiding behind. We move in our capsules: the capsules touch each other, the bodies touch each other, but deep down we remain isolated.
Even while making love, when your bodies have entered into each other, you have not entered. Only bodies are meeting; you remain still in your capsule, in your cell. You are just deceiving yourselves that there is communion. Even in sex, which is the deepest relationship, communion is not. It cannot happen because you are closed. Love has become an impossibility. And this is the reason – you are afraid.
So don’t ask such questions; don’t bring false questions. If you have known openness, you cannot feel that something can be harmful to you. Now nothing is harmful. That’s why I say even death is a blessing. Your approach has become different. Now wherever you look, you look with an open heart – that open heartedness changes the quality of everything. And you cannot feel that something is going to be harmful; you cannot ask how to defend – there is no need. The need arises because you are closed.
But you can go on supposing questions. People come to me and they say, “Okay, if we have realized God, then what?” They start with the question – if? There are no “ifs.” In existence you cannot raise such questions. They are absurd, stupid, because you don’t know what you are saying. “If I have realized God, then what?”
That “then what?” never arises, because with the realization, you are no more, only the godliness is. And with the realization, there is no future, only the present is. And with the realization, there is no worry, because you have become one with existence. So the question “then what?” never arises. This question arises because of the mind which is in constant worry, constant struggle, constantly thinking for the future.
When I become more and more aware, my attention develops and there remains a feeling that I exist, I am present, I am aware. Please explain how this feeling can be dissolved into an egoless state of just awareness.
This is again a supposed question. “When I become more and more aware, my attention develops and there remains a feeling that I exist, I am present, I am aware.”