And the second thing is: whenever you meditate many things will happen, and the idea is bound to come that something has happened to you. Nothing is wrong in the idea; that too is natural. One starts feeling that one is purer, holier; nothing is wrong in that. The problem arises if you make it an ego trip. There is no need to make it an ego trip; let it be a simple statement of fact. It is so, but don’t get too attached to it – you need not prove it to anybody. Don’t evaluate or judge it.
The problem arises when you start feeling “holier than thou.” Holiness is good, but when it becomes comparative then it is bad. Do you follow me?
When you take a bath you feel a certain feeling of coolness, of freshness – and there is nothing wrong in it. But when you see a beggar, dirty, and a condemnation arises; when you cannot see that man’s humanity, you simply see the dirt, and no compassion arises in you but rather condemnation; when you feel that you are purer than this man – then it is wrong, then it has become an ego trip.
And it is good also to help this person to try to have a bath; to create a situation where if he can be made interested he also can take a bath. So, good, feel compassion for people but not condemnation. In both ways you feel holy, but in one way you are creating trouble for yourself. Sooner or later that pureness will disappear and only ego will remain there. In another way, when you feel compassion, your holiness will grow, your purity will grow every day. Ego is the only dirty thing there is.
So I say don’t create any problems out of these. Enjoy everything that comes naturally.
The other night I got very frightened. I was in my room lying on my bed, and for some reason I started thinking that I am not my body alone. The room stood out very strongly, everything in the room stood out strongly, but it wasn’t warm, it was cold.
(smiling) It was a hotel room?
(laughing) It has to be cold then, mm?
I felt like running away from you(I felt closed.
It was an effortless meditation. It suddenly happened and that’s why you got frightened.
Now try it on purpose and consciously tonight. Be in the same room; lie down and start thinking that you are not the body, that you are separate from the body. The moment that you start thinking that you are not the body, everything will become very present and strong, because the warmth is within the identification with the body.