Each moment you are breathing – you breathe in, you breathe out – continuously there is a bridge with the existence. You eat, existence enters into you; you defecate, it becomes manure – the apple on the tree will become part of your body tomorrow, and some part of your body will go and become manure, will become food for the tree…a continuous give and take. Not for a single moment does it stop. When it stops, you are dead.
What is death? – separation is death. To be in unity is to be alive, to be out of unity is to be dead. So the more you think, “I am separate,” the less sensitive you will be, more dead, dragging, dull. The more you feel you are connected, the more this whole existence is part of you and you are part of this whole existence. Once you understand that we are members of each other, then suddenly the vision changes. Then these trees are not alien; they are continuously preparing food for you. When you breathe in you take oxygen in, when you breathe out you give carbon dioxide; the trees breathe in carbon dioxide and breathe out oxygen – there is a continuous communion. We are in tune. The reality is a unity. And with the idea of “me,” “you,” we are falling out of the reality. And once a wrong conception settles inside, your whole vision becomes upside down.
I have heard…
The young New Yorker was in Texas for the very first time. Seeing a herd of buffalo, he asked his host what they were.
“They are just wild pigs,” said his host. “Everything in Texas is big.”
A little later the visitor saw a flight of eagles and asked what they were.
“They are just sparrows,” said his host. “Everything is big in Texas.”
Later that night the visitor went looking for the toilet and fell into the swimming pool. “For Pete’s sake,” he cried. “Nobody pull the flush!”
Once you have a wrong conception of things, then that conception will distort everything. If “everything is big in Texas,” then the swimming pool must be a toilet. It is natural – one wrong conception leads to another wrong conception, and one small wrong conception leads to a bigger wrong conception. If you go on settling with this, one day you simply don’t know what reality is. You are simply clouded by your own conceptions.
“Me,” then “you,” and then as a reflection arises “I.” “I” is the subtlest, the most crystallized form of the possessiveness. Once you have uttered “I,” you have committed sacrilege. Once you have said “I,” you are broken completely from existence – not really broken, otherwise you would die. But in your ideas you are completely broken from reality. Now you will be in a continuous fight with reality. You will be fighting your own roots, you will be fighting with yourself.