If you are not identified with your clothes, with your conditioning, if you do not say, for example, “I am my mind,” it is not difficult; then you can change easily. But you become identified with your conditioning. You say, “My conditioning is me,” and all that is not your conditioning is denied. You think, “All that is not conditioned is not me, the unconscious is not me; I am the conscious, the focused mind.” This identification is dangerous. This should not be. A proper education is not conditioned, but is conditioned with the condition that conditioning is a utilitarian need; you must be able to take it on and off.
When it is needed you put it on, and when you do not need it you can take it off. Until it is possible to educate human beings so that they do not become identified with their conditionings, human beings are not really human beings. They are robots – conditioned, narrowed.
To understand this is to become aware of that part of the mind, the greater part, which has been denied light. And to become aware of it is to become aware that you are not the conscious mind. The conscious mind is just a part. “I” am both, and the greater part is unconditioned. But it is always there, waiting.
My definition of meditation is that it is simply an effort to jump into the unconscious. You cannot jump by calculation because all calculation is of the conscious and the conscious mind will not allow it. It will caution: “You will go mad. Do not do it.”
The conscious mind is always afraid of the unconscious because if the unconscious emerges, all that is calm and clear in the conscious will be swept away. Then everything will be dark, as in a forest.
It is like this: you have made a garden, a garden with a boundary. Very little ground has been cleared, but you have planted some flowers and everything is okay – ordered, clear.
Only, the forest is always nearby. It is unruly, uncontrollable, and the garden is in constant fear of it. At any moment the forest can enter and then the garden will disappear. In the same way, you have cultivated a part of your mind.
You have made everything clear. But the unconscious is always around, and the conscious mind is always in fear of it. The conscious mind says, “Don’t go into the unconscious. Don’t look at it, don’t think about it.”
The path of the unconscious is dark and unknown. To reason, it will look irrational; to logic, it will look illogical. So if you think in order to go into meditation, you will never go – because the thinking part will not allow you to.
This becomes a dilemma. You cannot do anything without thinking, and with thinking you cannot go into meditation.
What to do? Even if you think, “I am not going to think,” this is also thinking. It is the thinking part of the mind that is saying, “I shall not allow thinking.”
Meditation cannot be done by thinking; this is the dilemma – the greatest dilemma. Every seeker will have to come to this dilemma; somewhere, sometime, the dilemma will be there. Those who know say, “Jump! Do not think!” But you cannot do anything without thinking. That is why unnecessary devices have been created – I say unnecessary devices, because if you jump without thinking, no device is needed. But you cannot jump without thinking, so a device is needed.