Ten million ants can’t be wrong. Ants gather together wherever there is a picnic spot – flies and ants. That is our inner mathematics, that so many people, then they cannot be wrong. Alone one feels dizzy. With the crowd, people all around – this side, that side, in front, in back – a whole ocean of people, one feels perfectly right. So many people are going: they must be going in the right direction. And everybody is thinking the same.
Nobody knows where they are going. Just they are just going because the whole crowd is going. And if you ask everybody individually, “Are you going in the right direction?” he will say, “I don’t know. Because the whole world is going, so I am going.”
My whole effort here is to bring you out of the collective mind, to help make you an individual. In the beginning you will have to face chaos. And great trust will be needed, tremendous trust will be needed. Otherwise you can get out of the collective mind and you may not get into the individual mind; then you will be mad. That’s the risk. Without trust, moving into meditation is risky. I will not tell you to move into it; I will tell you it is better to remain normal, whatsoever “normality” means. Remain adjusted with the society. But if you are really ready to go on a great adventure, the greatest, then trust. And then wait for chaos.
The more aware you become, the less, of course, you are conscious of it. Because there is no need. Awareness is enough. Consciousness of awareness will be a strain. In the beginning it is so. You start learning to drive a car. Of course you are much troubled; you have to manage so many things – the wheel, the gear, the clutch, the accelerator, the brake, the road, and if you have a wife sitting at the back…. One has to be very, very conscious because so many things have to be managed together. It seems almost impossible in the beginning. By and by everything drops; you simply go on driving. You can talk to a friend, you can listen to the radio, you can sing a song, or you can meditate, and then there is no problem. Now driving has become a spontaneous thing. You know it, so there is no need to be self-conscious about it.
The same happens when you meditate. In the beginning you have to be conscious about consciousness. It brings a strain, a tiredness. By and by, as consciousness grows, there is no need to be conscious about it. It goes on flowing on its own, like breathing. You need not be conscious about it; it goes on its own. In fact, at the later stages of meditation, if you are concerned too much about your awareness, that will be a disturbance; just as, if you become conscious of your breathing, you will immediately disturb its natural rhythm. It flows naturally. There is no need for you to come in.
And awareness has to become so natural…. Only then is it possible: even while you are asleep, the light of awareness continues burning, the flame remains – even while you are fast asleep.