My presence is momentary. We are together for the moment – for a few moments at the most – and then we have to depart. And this departure cannot be canceled. So enjoy it, but don’t be contented with it. The enjoyment of my presence and your love for me should be shown by your passionate search for enlightenment. There is no other way.
And just to console yourself, you are asking, “Is this whole idea of “enlightenment” just another device?”
You would love it if I were to say to you, “Yes it is only just a device. Relax, you don’t have to go anywhere, you don’t have to grow.” But I cannot say that to you. I love you; that’s why I cannot say anything just to console you, just to make you happy for the moment, and destroy your possibilities for the future.
Enlightenment is not a device. Every device is for enlightenment.
You are saying, “I don’t really know what to believe anymore. You, your presence, and the tears in my eyes are all I have.”
You are not expected to believe in anything, because I am not here creating believers; I want inquirers. I am not here creating obedient followers. I want rebellious seekers, not people who are incapable of saying, “No!” – because to me unless you are able to say no, your yes is meaningless. Unless you can doubt, you cannot find authentic trust. It is only through doubt, and the dark night of doubt, that you reach to a state of finding something which is indubitable. Then trust arises. There is no need to be worried about what to believe anymore.
It is good that you say, “You, your presence, and the tears in my eyes are all I have.”
That is your knowledge, superficially. If you go deeper into your being, into meditation, you will have much more. You will not lose my presence; in fact it will become deepened. You will be able to feel it in many more dimensions than you are doing now. You will be able to see it with more clarity, with more understanding, and it will be more nourishing.
And your tears will become more and more of joy, blissfulness, gratitude. They will become finally your prayers, because unless a man knows how to pray with tears, he does not know what prayer is. Prayers made of words are not prayers, because words come from the head and the head has no understanding of gratitude. Tears come from a deeper source, from your heart; and they say much more, they contain much more.
Words are empty, tears are immensely significant. Your tears will become more and more joyful, more and more musical, more and more full of songs, more and more a dance unto themselves. But don’t stay in the same place: where the morning finds you, the evening should not find you; you should have moved. Where the evening leaves you, the morning should not find you there; you should have moved.
Life is small and the journey is tremendous, with so many treasures. And unless you make it your only passion, you will not be able to reach to enlightenment. But anyway, it is by the corner.