When Saraha’s Tantra reaches to its ultimate peak, the recognition is: neither you are right, neither you are true, neither you exist, nor I; both disappear. There are two zeros meeting, not I and thou – neither I nor thou. Two zeros, two empty spaces dissolve into each other…because the whole effort on Saraha’s path is how to dissolve thought, and I and thou are parts of thought. When thought is utterly dissolved, how can you call yourself l? And whom will you call your God? God is part of thought; it is a thought creation, a thought construct, a mind construct. So all mind constructs dissolve and shunya, emptiness, arises.
On Shiva’s path you no longer love the form, you no longer love the person – you start loving the whole existence. The whole existence becomes your thou; you are addressed to the whole existence. Possessiveness is dropped, jealousy is dropped, hatred is dropped; all that is negative in feeling is dropped, and the feeling becomes purer and purer. A moment comes when there is pure love. In that moment of pure love, you dissolve into thou and thou dissolves into you. You also disappear, but you disappear not like two zeros; you disappear as the beloved disappears into the lover and the lover disappears into the beloved.
Up to this point they are different, but that too is a formal difference. Beyond this, what does it matter whether you disappear like a lover and a beloved, or you disappear like two zeros? The basic point, the fundamental point, is that you disappear, that nothing is left, that no trace is left. That disappearance is enlightenment.
So you have to understand it: if love appeals to you, Shiva will appeal to you, and The Book of Secrets will be your Tantra bible. If meditation appeals to you, then Saraha will appeal to you. It depends on you. Both are right, both are going on the same journey. With whom you would like to travel, that is your choice. If you can be alone and blissful, then Saraha…. If you cannot be blissful when you are alone, and your bliss comes only when you relate, then Shiva. This is the difference between Hindu Tantra and Buddhist Tantra.
The second question:
I always agree with whatsoever you say – then why is my life not changing?
Maybe because of the agreement. If you agree with me, or if you disagree with me, your life will not change. It is not a question of agreement or disagreement, it is a question of understanding – and understanding is beyond both agreement and disagreement.
Ordinarily, when you agree you think you have understood me. If you have understood me then there will be no question of agreement and disagreement. How can you agree with truth? – or disagree? The sun has risen – do you agree or do you disagree? You will say the question is irrelevant.