What discipline am I giving to you? None. A disciplined mind is again a mind, even more stubborn, more adamant; a disciplined mind is more stupid. Go and see the disciplined monks all over the world – Christian, Hindu, Jaina. Whenever you see a man who is absolutely disciplined you will find a stupid mind behind it. The flowing has stopped. He is so much concerned with finding something that he is ready to do whatsoever you say. If you say, “Stand on your head for an hour,” he is ready to stand on his head. It is because of desire. If God can be achieved only through standing on his head for hours, he is ready, but he must achieve.
I am not giving you any achieving, any desiring; there is nowhere to reach and nothing to achieve. If you realize this you have achieved this very moment. This very moment you are perfect; nothing is to be done, nothing is to be changed. This very moment you are absolute Brahman.
That’s why the master said, “I don’t understand it myself.” It is difficult to find a master who says, “I don’t understand it myself,” for a master must claim that he knows, only then will you follow him. A master must not only claim that he knows, he must claim that only he knows, nobody else: “All other masters are wrong, I alone know.” Then will you follow. You must be absolutely certain, then you become a follower. The certainty gives you the feeling that here is the man, and if you follow you will reach.
I will tell you a story. It happened once, a so-called master was traveling. In every village he would go, he would declare, “I have achieved, I have known the divine. If you want, come and follow me.”
People would say, “There are many responsibilities. Someday we hope we will be able to follow you.” They would touch his feet, give him respect, serve him, but nobody would follow because there were many other things to be done first before one went to seek the divine. First things first. The divine is always the last, and the last thing never comes because the first are so infinite they are never finished.
But in one village, a madman – mad he was, otherwise who would follow this master? – said, “Right. Have you found?”
The master hesitated a little, looking at the madman – because this man seemed dangerous, he might follow and create trouble – but before the whole village he couldn’t deny it, so he said, “Yes.”
The madman said, “Now, initiate me. I will follow you to the very end. I want to realize God myself.” The so-called master became perturbed, but what to do? The madman started following him, he became a shadow.
One year passed. The madman said, “How far, how far is the temple?” He said, “I am not in a hurry but how much time will be needed?”
By this time the master had become very uncomfortable and uneasy with this man. This madman would sleep with him, he would move with him; he had become his shadow. And because of him his certainty was dissolving. Whenever he would say in a village, “Follow me,” he would become afraid, because this man would look at him and say, “I am following you, master, and still I have not reached.”