And the next day the same person writes an angry letter – because once I receive somebody’s letter of gratitude I know what has been the cause; immediately the other day I am bound to say something specially for him. And without fail he writes an angry letter, that, “I used to think that you are enlightened, but you are not! I am sorry to say, but I have to say the truth.” Just the other day the truth was totally different. Truth changes so easily; if it fits with you it is absolutely okay.
I am not here to support you, I am here to dismantle your mind. You need hammering in many ways.
A follower of Gurdjieff was here few months before Nirvana’s father, old man, and he had come with great love and great respect – and he has been writing letters to me that “I want to come before I die, I want to see you. I could not see Gurdjieff; at least I don’t want to miss this opportunity of seeing you.” And then he found an opportunity – some money came by and he immediately rushed… And he was very happy because whatsoever I was saying was fulfilling his expectations.
And then Pradeepa disturbed him. She asked a question to me about him, that “Why he is not taking sannyas? When he is so much in tune with you, why he is not taking sannyas?” And just few words I told and all his joy disappeared. The next day in anger he left – immediately wrote a letter that, “I am very much disillusioned. I had never expected that you will say such things.”
If I was saying nice things about Gurdjieff or things which were fitting with his idea of Gurdjieff – they may fit with Gurdjieff or not, that was not the point – if they were fitting with his idea of Gurdjieff…He had never been to Gurdjieff; if he had been to Gurdjieff the same would happen there – he would have gone angry. If he had not come here he would have remained loving and respectful towards me his whole life; he would have died with great love towards me. But what kind of love is this? This is not true love.
True love has courage enough. It is ready even to die, what to say about dropping few prejudices? But people cling to their prejudices as if they are carrying a great treasure.
Knowledgeable people are the most ignorant people in the world; the ignorant people are not so ignorant.
You must be carrying some knowledge within you – drop your knowledge. This is not a place to carry your knowledge. This is not a place where you can gather more information, where you can become more learned. This is a place to become more innocent, and then things will start happening very easily. If you are carrying some subtle ideas deep down in your unconscious, then you are always looking – maybe not consciously, maybe not very deliberately, but always looking – to be supported, nourished. And if something is not supporting, it hurts, it wounds, and immediately you shrink back, you withdraw from me.
And this thing goes on happening every day. People come close to me, they withdraw; they come close to me, they withdraw again. This game goes on happening until finally they realize the whole stupidity and wastage of time.