And I can see your love. This whole month it has been growing, as if spring has come to you, new green leaves, new flowers, a new perfume, and your heart is full of new visions. Just continue dissolving into love.
That’s the meaning of disciplehood: dissolving into the love, dissolving into the presence of the master, just becoming one with his heartbeats. And songs will shower on you, and flowers of unknown, inexperienced fragrances will grow in you. You are on the right track. Just don’t look back – and don’t stop anywhere, because this is a journey that only begins but never ends.
I wonder whether as your disciple I can be utterly selfish, to find my way to enlightenment whatever I am doing, or do I have to fulfill a certain function for you to spread your vision?
It has to be understood very clearly that nobody has a duty to spread my vision, my message, to the people. I hate the very word missionary. They are the ugliest creatures on the earth. I don’t want to create missionaries.
You have to be utterly selfish, concentrated on only one aim: becoming enlightened. Of course, as you become enlightened, your light will start reaching to others. My message will start vibrating through you, through your love, without any effort on your part. It has never been said: “Be utterly selfish.” All the religions of the world have been teaching, “Be altruistic,” and they all have failed, because their very foundation was wrong. You don’t know what truth is, and you start spreading the message about truth. You are lying.
I have asked Christian missionaries, “What is your experience?” They don’t have any experience. What they have are degrees from theological colleges. Somebody is a DD, a doctor of divinity. Because he has written a thesis, he has become a doctor of divinity – and he knows nothing about divineness, he has never tasted anything that he can call divine. He has never had a single moment in his life when he has touched the beyond; he had no time – he was reading books and writing his doctoral thesis. He was concerned with words, not with experiences.
I lived in Jabalpur for at least twenty years, and Jabalpur has Asia’s biggest Christian theological college. It prepares missionaries – that’s its function.
The principal was very interested in me. I asked him, “Be sincere, do you really feel that you have something more than the body and the mind? Have you experienced anything of the soul?”
He said, “I have read about it, and I trust that the people who have written about it are not lying.”