Don’t be worried; it will disappear by and by. There is nothing wrong in it. Try and make it a meditation. Just do one thing: every night when you go to sleep, just repeat three times that whenever it is going to happen, it will be tremendously peaceful and silent and blissful. That’s all. And next time when it happens, something of meditation will have entered into it and there will be a change. Epileptic fits and ecstatic fits are similar: the mechanism is the same, only the quality is different.
Ramakrishna used to have fits. Doctors diagnosed that they were epileptic and that he was going insane. Had he been in the West he would have immediately been given electric shocks and been put into a mental asylum. You have the fit for only two minutes. He used to sometimes have a fit for six hours, and once he remained unconscious for eighteen hours.
In India, we know that the symptom is the same as in epilepsy but that the person is only unconscious in the body – deep inside the consciousness is there and he is perfectly peaceful.
Next time it happens you will have a very ecstatic and blissful experience – deep silence and calm. And those two minutes will give you a tremendous insight into your being.
But use the same words every night and in the same order, so the mind doesn’t get confused. Next time it will be beautiful, it will not be a disease anymore.
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Where I work in a meditation center in the West, I often feel difficulties in both working and meditating. I have some helpers, but I work much(.
No, work much. Working is never bad, and one can never work too much, never. We never work too much.
We never work as much as we can, we never work to the maximum potential. In fact, at the most, people work fifteen percent of their potential – and those are the very hard workers.
As I see it, you are not working more than seven or eight percent. The more you work, the more you are capable of working. The less you work, the less you become capable of working. Life has its own logic.
Jesus says, “If you have, more will be given to you. If you don’t have, even that which you have will be taken away from you.” If you work hard you will get more energy. If you don’t work hard, if you don’t work at all and you avoid it, even the energy that you have will disappear. So whatsoever you want to do, do it, and do it to the optimum. And soon you will see that more and more doors are opening, and more energy becomes available.
Always try to reach more than you can grasp; always try to reach beyond your grasp. That is how one grows. If you always try that which you can do, you will always fall flat on the earth – you will not be growing. Try the impossible and it becomes possible. And if you don’t try the possible, even that will become impossible.