So I am not teaching you to be good, I am not teaching you to be bad; I am teaching you only to be whole. To be whole is to be healthy and to be healthy is to be holy.
But the ego does not want to be whole, because once you are whole the ego cannot exist. The ego exists only in the split. When you are fighting with yourself, the ego exists. The ego always exists through conflict; conflict is its food, nourishment. So if you are whole, the ego cannot exist. You can watch it. You can go and watch the criminals – they have their ego, you can go and watch your saints – they have their ego: the ego of the good and the ego of the bad. But if you can find a man who has no ego, he will be neither a sinner nor a saint, he will be very simple. He will not claim anything good or bad; he will not claim at all.
The ego is created by the rift. When you are fighting, the ego comes in; when you are not fighting, the ego cannot come in. Ego is a tension. If you want the ego, then divide yourself as fully as possible – become two persons. That is what is happening to many people, that is what has happened to whole of humanity. Everybody has become two persons: one voice says “Do this,” the other voice says “Don’t do that” – then the ego arises. Out of friction ego arises, and ego is very intoxicating; it makes you unconscious. This is the whole mechanism.
For ego, you have to fight, divide, create conflict. An inner violence, an inner war – and then ego arises, and ego intoxicates. It makes you very unconscious, as if you were always on drugs. It does not allow you to see things as they are.
Another athletic drunk appeared at a ticket window in Louisville with a companion slung over his shoulder out cold. “One seat to Cincinnati” he demanded.
The ticket seller said “How about that big lug you’re carrying?”
“Him?” deprecated the drunk. “Thass jus’ my little six-year-old boy Abner.”
“Six years old, eh?” said the ticket seller. “Why, he’s fully six feet tall, weight about one eighty-five, and has a beard three inches long!”
The drunk dumped his companion on the platform and grumbled “Dammit, Abner! I told you to shave!”
A drunk is a drunk; he cannot see things as they are. He projects, imagines, and thinks that if he is befooled, he can befool the whole world.