But in fact everybody is lost – lost because you don’t know who you are, lost because you have not encountered your being, lost because you are not a real, integrated individual but only a phony personality.
An Englishman was marooned on a desert island where he was looked after by a beautiful native girl. On the first night she gave him the most exotic drinks. On the second night she fed him the most delicious food imaginable. On the third night she said to him, “Would you like to play games with me now?”
“Don’t tell me,” replied the passionately-excited Englishman, “that you have got a football here as well!”
An Englishman is just an Englishman….
Everybody has grown a certain ego, and the ego goes on dominating you in every sphere of life. It dictates to you the style in which you should live. It dictates to you what is right and what is wrong. And if you look deeply, the day you will be able to see your ego as a false entity you are bound to feel so sorry for yourself: you have been dictated to by a false entity your whole life. Now you will be able to see that whatever was told to you as right is nothing but nourishment for the ego, and whatever was told to you as wrong is nothing but deprivation of nourishment to the ego.
All your right and wrong, all your moral and immoral acts, all your good and evil can be demarcated with a single thing; a definition that you may have never thought about. All that fulfills your ego is moral, virtuous, spiritual, religious, and all that goes against your ego is a sinner’s life, a criminal way of living, immoral, unspiritual, condemnable. All honor is for the ego, all dignity is for the ego and all dishonor is for the person who is not fulfilling the demands of the ego.
But once you become a witness, you can see this subtle strategy, this whole psychology of destroying you and keeping you away from yourself and the very center of existence.
Your ego is your hell, your ego is your misery. Your ego is the cancer of your soul. The only way out of it is to become a witness of your mind processes.
The other night during discourse I realized that I am so stubborn and pigheaded. I always have this “but” inside me and I don’t know how to jump over it. Osho, how can I surrender to you totally?