Once you have felt that beautitude of non-choosing and floating, you will never choose again. Because whenever you choose you choose hell, and whatsoever you choose you choose hell.
So I would like you to drown – drown with my blessings.
When Jesus says that those who cling to themselves will lose themselves, and those who are ready to lose will gain, he means exactly the same thing. When Sufis say, “Die before your death, and then you will become deathless,” they mean the same.
The death of the ego happens only through surrender. People come to me and they ask, “How not to be egoistic?” But you cannot do anything to be non-egoistic. Whatsoever you will do will make you again egoistic. You can try…discipline the ego, but you cannot be non-egoistic because whatsoever you do enhances the ego. The moment you become a doer, in whatsoever way…you may try to be humble, but if it is your humbleness – practiced, disciplined by you – then deep down in your humbleness the ego will remain crowned, and it will go on saying, “Look. How humble I am!”
I have heard about one man who went to see Adler, the great psychologist who coined the words inferiority complex. The man was psychoanalyzed. After a few months and much effort, Adler told him, “Now you are cured.”
The man said, “Yes, I also feel that I am cured. Now I am the one who has the most beautiful inferiority complex in the world…the best inferiority complex in the world.”
Inferiority complex, and the most beautiful and the best? It is possible. It happens every day. You can become egoistic about the inferiority complex also. You can feel a superiority complex about an inferiority complex also. Man is so ridiculous.
Go to religious people and see their faces. They show all signs of humbleness, but you will have to go a little deeper, deeper than their skin, to know them. Deep down the ego is very happy, feeling that “Nobody is more humble than me.” If you say to a religious man, “I have found a man who is more humble than you,” he will be hurt. He will feel insulted, it is impossible, nobody can be more humble than him. But that is the whole effort of the ego – nobody has a better house than me, nobody has a better car than me, nobody has a better face than me, nobody has better knowledge than me. In that comparison and feeling better is the ego.