A thought is not a permanent thing. By the time you become aware of it, it has gone; it has faded, withered away. Another thought takes its place. It is a continuous process. He became aware that he is not. And he became aware that he has not one single name. He looked at Jesus and in that impact he said, “My name? You ask my name? My name is legion – a thousand and one are my names. And I don’t know really which one is mine.”
Watch your life for twenty-four hours. You will find a thousand and one persons within yourself. And then you will become aware that you are not…yet. You are yet unborn; you are still in the womb. The body has come out of the womb, but not the soul. As a body you are born, but as a soul, not yet. Yet, you are hesitating to be born; yet, you are afraid to be born. Yet, you have not decided to be born, because each birth is preceded by a death.
You are born as a body outside the womb: the life of the inner womb dies before you are born to the life outside. And you can be born as one only when all the Humpty Dumptys within you die, when all thoughts disappear, when all moods disappear. When the sky is no longer clouded, is empty – when you are empty – the Humpty Dumpty disappears.
And when I say about emptiness, remember, I am not talking about a negative emptiness. Whenever I say “empty,” I mean so empty that you are full. The sky is empty and is full: full of itself, empty of the clouds; empty of the foreign element, full of its own nature.
When you are empty of all thoughts, then you are. When you are empty of all moods, then for the first time you are born, resurrected. Then the son of man that Jesus talks about is born. You have become perfect.
Right now you are a crowd, a madhouse. And yes, it is true: “Humpty Dumpty sat on, a wall.” You are also sitting on a wall from where any moment you can fall, because the ego always goes on finding a higher and higher place to sit. It wants to be at the peak.
“Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.” The ego is always sitting on the wall, and the higher the wall goes, the more dangerous the fall is going to be.
“Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.” Whenever the ego falls, it falls tremendously – because it was rising and rising, higher and higher, Then there comes a point: you cannot balance yourself at that height. The whole of life is a politics to reach higher and higher. The whole of life is a desire and ambition to attain to the highest peak, the Everest – higher than anybody else. But then when you fall, it is going to be a great fall.
“Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. All the king’s horses and all the king’s men, couldn’t put Humpty Dumpty together again.” Then nobody can put you together. “All the king’s horses and all the king’s men….” Even if the whole world is engaged in putting you together again, it is impossible. The job is impossible.