This is what is called freedom: nowhere to go…and without money, no woman is going to look at you. This is real blessedness! But you…
You are saying, “Last week I felt so blessed.” Because of the girl-enemy! And now she has taken the money and gone her way towards somebody else who has a real phone connection, and at least a second-hand old car. Who is going to bother with you? There seems to be no reason. Now you can be absolutely blessed. No woman will disturb you.
It is the strange mind of man, that most are worried that they are not becoming enlightened because of the woman – she goes on creating trouble and they cannot become enlightened. Now the woman has gone with the money. Now there is nothing to worry and fear: you can keep your bamboo hut’s door open, day and night, whether you are there or not. You are certainly one of the freest men in the world. Just a little walking, that is all, and you will be enlightened.
And now you know that it is not so easy to tell me, “Don’t take this question too seriously!” It was good when the money was in the bag, but now I have to take it seriously.
In fact, your life is a beautiful progression towards enlightenment; step by step you are going in the right direction.
You say, “Osho, when you initiated me eight years ago, I had my own business, a great car, a nice apartment and always a beautiful woman around.”
This is what all the awakened ones have called the bondage, the samsar. You were too much in the mud; then by and by everything disappeared. That’s why the awakened people have called this world a dream. Now – no apartment, no beautiful great car, no business….
You say, “I dressed myself in a three-piece business uniform complete with briefcase. Now I live in a bamboo hut.”
Great! God is merciful!
“I drive a rented bike…”
The only problem is whether you can pay the rent or not. The money is gone – how long is the rented bike going to be with you? These rented bikes are like rented women, there is no difference. Most probably, the woman must have taken the rented bike also. She has left you absolutely in a state of renunciation.
That’s what all the great saints have been teaching, but you don’t listen – “Disown the world and the worldly things because these are the barriers; otherwise you are enlightened.” Now you have nothing to lose. You can be enlightened!
Enlightenment is not happening to people because they are worried: if they become enlightened, what about the phone? If they become enlightened, what about the apartment? If they become enlightened, what about the woman around? Their enlightenment will disperse everything. So they go on postponing enlightenment.
Bhairava, now you don’t have to postpone for a single moment.