And that’s what people are doing. You see cowardice, you try not to notice it, but it is a fact. By not noticing it, you have created a part of your being which you will not be able to see. You have divided yourself into segments. Now one day there is something else, anger, and you don’t want to accept that there is anger in you. You stop looking at it. Then some other day there is greed, and so on and so forth. And whatsoever you stop looking at remains. But now you go on shrinking. Many more parts of your being become separate from you. You have separated them on your own. And the more fragmentary you are, the more miserable you will be.
The first step towards bliss is to be one. That’s what Hakim Sanai is insisting again and again, “To be one is to be blissful, to be many is to be in hell.” So whatsoever is experientially real, accept it. You cannot do anything by denying it. By denying it you create the problem, the problem becomes more complex. It was simple.
You feel a coward – so what? So “I am a coward.” Just see the point, if you can accept cowardice you have already become brave. Only a brave person can accept the fact of being a coward; no coward can do that. You are already on the way of transformation. So the first thing, nothing that is experienced as a fact has to be denied reality.
Second, in order to accomplish that, consciousness must first disidentify from all fixed conceptual selves with which it has identified itself. Because if it holds to being some fixed and enduring conceptual self, there will be no tolerance for those experiential realities which are in contradiction with this fixed, conceptual, official self.
If you have a certain idea of how you should be, then you cannot accept the experiential truths of your being. If you have the idea that you have to be a brave man, that bravery is a value, then it is difficult to accept your cowardice. If you have the idea that you have to be a Buddha-like person – compassionate, absolutely compassionate – then you cannot accept your anger. It is the ideal that creates the problem.
If you don’t have any ideals then there is no problem at all. You are a coward, so you are a coward. And because there is no ideal of being a brave man, you don’t condemn the fact. You don’t reject it, you don’t repress it, you don’t throw it into the basement of your being, so that there is no need for you ever to look at it. But anything that you throw into your unconscious will go on functioning from there; it will go on creating problems for you.
It is like a disease that you have pushed inwards. It was coming to the surface, and from the surface there was a possibility that it might have disappeared. If a wound comes to the surface it is good, it is on the way to being healed. Because it is only from the surface that it will be in contact with fresh air and the sun and it will be healed. If you force it inwards, if you don’t allow it to come to the surface, then it is going to become a cancer. Even a small disease, repressed, can become a dangerous disease. No disease should ever be repressed.