The first question:
What is surrender? I used to think I knew. Now it is a mystery.
The false knowledge de-mystifies existence; true knowledge re-mystifies it. Knowing, if authentic, makes life more of a mystery than it has ever been before. Knowledge certainly covers your eyes with dark clouds and creates a wall of thick smoke; you start feeling you know. In fact, you are going deeper into ignorance. To be knowledgeable is to be more ignorant than even the ignorant ones.
The Upanishads have a tremendously significant statement. They say: The ignorant man is lost in darkness, but the knowledgeable man is lost in deeper darkness than the ignorant man – because the knowledgeable lives in an “as if” world. He thinks he knows, but he knows not. He only believes; he has not seen. He believes in God, he believes in love, he believes in surrender, but belief is always a cover-up. Your wound is covered, but it is not healed that way. In fact, the more you cover it the less is the possibility of its ever being healed. Expose it to the sun, to the wind, to the rain – expose it to the healing forces that surround you.
Mahavira standing naked under the sky is simply saying, making a silent statement: “Be naked, drop all your clothes, don’t hide!” And we are not only wearing clothes on the body – they are not that important – we are wearing clothes and clothes, layers and layers of knowledge, which are really hiding our truth from ourselves.
To be really naked before existence is to know, but that knowing is totally different from knowledge. It is closer to feeling than to knowledge, it is closer to love than logic, it is closer to experiencing than believing. It is existential.
The blind man believes in light; the man of eyes sees it. And when there is seeing, no question of believing arises. Only the blind believe; the seers have no need to believe – they know! But to know life is to know that it is unknowable. To know life is to know that it is an unfathomable mystery, immeasurable.
The word matter means the measurable, it comes from measure. Science is wrong because it thinks that life can be measured, fathomed, de-mystified. Knowledge believes that life can be divided into two departments: the known and the unknown. That which is known today was unknown yesterday; that which is unknown today will become known tomorrow. The unknown will go on receding, the unknown will go on disappearing. The known will go on becoming bigger and bigger, and one day all will be known.