Whenever a situation arises which creates fear, there are two alternatives – either you fight or you take flight. A small child ordinarily cannot fight – particularly in countries like yours, Ethiopia. In America, a child will fight so much that the parents will take the flight! But in old countries, in tradition-bound countries, a child cannot fight. The only way is to close, to wrap oneself inside oneself as protection. So you have learned the trick of flight.
Now the only possibility is that whenever you feel you are trying to escape, stick there, be stubborn, and give a good fight. Just for one month try the opposite and then we will see. Once you can do the opposite I will tell you how to drop both. Both have to be dropped – because only then a man becomes fearless, and because both are wrong. Because one wrong has gone too deep in you, it has to be balanced by the other.
So for one month you be a real warrior – about anything. And you will feel very good, really good. Because whenever one escapes, one feels very bad, inferior. This is a cowardly trick – to close oneself. Become brave. Then we will drop both, because to be brave is also, deep down, to be cowardly. When bravery and cowardice both disappear then one becomes fearless. You try it!
I’ve been experiencing a lot of fear. I feel some connection between this and the fact that I don’t like myself very much – something I just recently discovered. I keep judging myself through the eyes of others and I’m unhappy with myself.
What can you do? You are yourself whether you like it or not. You will not become someone else, you will remain yourself, so it is simply foolish, absurd. Whether you like yourself or not is not the point; no one is asking you if you do. So you will remain yourself; there is no way to get out of it. One has to accept it.
And there is nothing wrong in being oneself. The problem is there because you go on comparing. What is the point of comparing? Every individual is so unique that comparison is simply meaningless. Comparison is possible only if everybody is like everybody else. You don’t compare a rose with a lotus; it is pointless – a rose is a rose, a lotus a lotus. Every human being is a different flowering, and you cannot be compared with anyone else. So drop the comparison and while you are here, enjoy. Why waste time?
And let the fear be, and by and by it will disappear. If you try to do something it will take longer to go. Fear is natural in a way, because man is going to die, and unless you know something within you that is immortal, unless the deathless is encountered, fear will follow you like a shadow. So simply accept it, it is part of humanity.