That’s the problem. You ask, “Why do I feel hesitation in enjoying anything?” Because your parents, your society, are still after you.

If you are really with me, drop all that nonsense that has been forced on you. There is only one religion in the world and that religion is to be happy. Everything else is immaterial and irrelevant. If you are happy you are right, if you are unhappy you are wrong.

It happens every day, people come to me – the wife comes or the husband comes – and the wife says she is very unhappy because the husband is doing something wrong. I always tell such people that if the husband is doing something wrong, let him be unhappy. “Why are you unhappy? The wrong itself will lead him towards unhappiness – why are you worried?”

But the wife says, “But he is not unhappy. He goes to the pub and he enjoys. He is not unhappy at all.”

Then I say, “Something is wrong with you, not with him. Unhappiness is the indicator. You change yourself; forget about him. If he is happy, he is right.”

I tell you, if you can go happily to a pub, that is better than going unhappily to a temple – because finally one comes to discover that happiness is the temple. So what you do is not the question – what quality do you bring to it while doing it? Be happy and you are virtuous; be unhappy and you are committing what religious people have called sin. You must have heard them say that the sinner will suffer some day in the future, in some future life, and the saint will be happy somewhere in the future, in a future life. I say that is absolutely wrong. The saint is happy here and now, and the sinner is unhappy. Life does not wait for so long; it is immediate.

So if you feel yourself unhappy, you must have been doing something wrong with yourself. If you cannot enjoy – if some hesitation comes in, if you feel afraid, guilty – it means somewhere by the corner the shadows of your parents are still lurking. You may be enjoying, or trying to enjoy ice cream, but deep in the unconscious the shadow of the mother or the father is lurking. “This is wrong. Don’t eat too much, this is going to harm you.” So you are eating, but the hesitation is there. The hesitation means the contradiction is there.

Try to understand your hesitation and drop it. And this is one of the most unbelievable phenomena: that if you drop the hesitation it may come to pass that you stop eating too much ice cream automatically – because that eating too much may be part of it. Because they have denied it, they have created a certain attraction in it. Every denial brings attraction. They have said, “Don’t eat it,” and that has created a hypnotic, a magnetic, attraction to eat it.