I want you to wake up, and waking up is a painful process because it will destroy all your hopes. It will destroy all that you have cherished and thought very beautiful. Waking up is destructive in the sense that it will destroy your unconsciousness.
And we all live in unconsciousness. Unconsciousness has been our way of life for many lives. It has become our second nature. In fact, it has covered our nature so deeply that you don’t know that there is another nature to you, that this is not your nature, that the way you are is not the natural way – not the way of dharma, Tao, religion. Unconsciousness is deep, and the whole work here consists to bring you to consciousness. It will destroy all kinds of desires, hopes, fantasies, future.
It is a difficult task for me to destroy your dreams, because sometimes they are so sweet, so cute. It is difficult to take away your unconscious habits from you. It is not like taking your clothes away, it is like peeling your skin – it hurts.
The first thing to recognize is that coming from unconsciousness after many many lives into consciousness is a painful process. Growth is painful.
The health service doctor told the shapely co-ed, “Miss Wellbuilt, if I have to find out just what’s wrong with you I’ll have to examine you thoroughly, so please undress completely.”
To which she blushed and replied, “Okay, doctor, but you first.”
Just old habit! We are in the grip of our old habits, patterns, structures, strategies.
Once a Western salesman did not get home except about once in six months. On the night he went home, after supper he and his wife were sitting in the living room quietly reading. Suddenly there was a knock at the door.
“My husband!” exclaimed the woman, dropping her newspaper.
“Good-bye!” cried her man, leaping out of a back window.
I understand exactly where is your trouble. You have a gestalt. It has penetrated in the body, in the mind it has gone deep. It is even reaching to your very essence, to your very core. Now, uprooting it all, shaking you, shocking you into awareness is a hard task. It is not only painful for you, it is painful for me too.
It is like snatching away toys from a child. He will cry and he will weep and he will implore you to give his toys back. But one day or other those toys have to be taken away, otherwise when will he be able to live in the real world? How long can he be allowed to fantasize?