“But, Issy, since when is that a thousand times worse than me? It is the same story what you have told me.”
“Abe, you forget one thing: I am in the men’s clothing.”
Get it? If you don’t know what to do with sex energy, and you start fooling with it, either your energy will become masturbatory or homosexual or there are a thousand and one other perversions. Then it is better to leave it as it is.
That’s why a master is needed – one who knows where you are, where you are going, and what is going to happen next; one who can see your future and one who can see whether the right channeling is happening or not. Otherwise the whole world is in a mess of sexual perversion.
Never repress. It is better to be normal and natural than to be perverted. But just to be normal is not enough, much more is possible: Transform. Repression is not the way of urdhvaretas – transformation is And that can be done only if you purify your body, you purify your mind; you throw all rubbish that you have gathered in the body and the mind. Only with a purity, light, weightlessness, will you be able to help the energy to move upwards.
Ordinarily it is like a coiled snake; that’s why we call it kundalini, or kundali. Kundali means “coiled up.” When it raises its head and moves upwards, tremendous is the experience. Whenever it passes a higher center, you will have higher and higher experiences. On each center many things will be revealed to you; you are a great book. But the energy has to pass through the centers; only then can those centers reveal you their beauties, their visions, their poetries, their songs, their dances. And each center has a higher orgasm than the lower one.
Sexual orgasm is the lowest. Higher is the orgasm of the hara. Then higher than that is the orgasm of the nabhi, the navel. Then higher than that is that of love – the heart. Then higher than that is that of the throat – creativity, sharing. Then higher than that is that of the third eye, the vision of life as really it is, without any projections – the clarity to see unclouded. And highest is that of the sahasrar, the seventh center.
This is the map. If you want, you can move upwards, become urdhvaretas. But never try to become urdhvaretas for siddhis, powers – they are all foolish. Try to become urdhvaretas to know who you are, not for power but peace. Let peace be thy goal, never power.