When some visitors
unexpectedly found Heraclitus
warming himself by the cooking fire,
he said to them:
Here, too, are the gods.
I have searched myself.
Time is a child
moving counters in a game;
the royal power is a child’s.
Bigotry is the sacred disease.
There are two ways to seek the true: one is to borrow knowledge, the other is to seek yourself. Of course borrowing is easy, but whatsoever you borrow is never yours, and that which is not yours cannot be true. This condition must be fulfilled: truth must be yours.
I may have known truth, but I cannot transfer it to you. In the very act of transferring it becomes a lie. That is the nature of truth. So nobody can give it to you, you cannot borrow it, you cannot steal it, you cannot purchase it – you have to know it. And unless you know, your knowledge is not a knowing – it is a hiding place for your ignorance. You are deceiving yourself, you are completely misguided.
The first thing to remember is that truth is a lived phenomenon. Who can live for you? You have to live for yourself, nobody can be a substitute. Who can love for you? Servants cannot do that, friends cannot be of any help – you have to love. Jean-Paul Sartre says somewhere that sooner or later a time will come when people will engage servants to love for them. Of course, rich people are already on the way. Sooner or later those who can afford it, they will not bother themselves. Why bother when a servant can do it? You can find a beautiful, good servant, and he can love for you. You have other more important things to do – love can be left to servants.
Mulla Nasruddin once told me, “I am very much interested in my wife’s happiness.”
So I asked, “What are you doing?”
He said, “I have hired a private detective to search for the reasons.”
But can anybody else love for you? No, there is no possibility. You cannot be alive by proxy, you cannot love by proxy – and you cannot reach truth by proxy either. That is the very nature of things. There is no way to be cunning about it and clever about it. Man has tried: “There is one who knows; we can get it from him, we can borrow it.” But truth has to be lived. It is not something outside, it is an inner growth. It is not a thing, it is not an object; it is your subjectivity.