But he could have been a homosexual; then just the opposite would have been the case. If she had been a woman, useless. Then the sannyasin, a beautiful male body, would have become the poetry within him.
A homosexual exists in a different world, his projection is different. A heterosexual exists again in a totally different world, his projection is also different. Then there are auto-erotic people who do not bother about homosexuality or heterosexuality; they are so confined to their own bodies – they exist in a totally different world. And there are people who have transcended sex; they exist in a totally different world. So the world is not out there, it is somewhere within you.
Then there is a point when there is no mind: this world that you have known up to now simply disappears. Not that nothing remains, not that everything dissolves into nothingness – no. But all that you have known simply disappears, and the unknown is faced for the first time. The world is a projection, existence is not. When the world disappears, existence is there in its absolute glory – magnificent! But now it is not a projection because there is no projector inside. Mind is a projector – watch it, because this is one of the roots of all your misery…and all your happiness also.
A man who understands is neither happy nor unhappy, he is neither in anguish nor in bliss – and that is the bliss. He simply exists without any projection. Nothing can make him more happy, nothing can make him more unhappy. He is simply in a deep contentment for the first time – nothing disturbs – and he can see what existence is.
Those who have seen in such a way, without the mind, say that the world is not, God is. The world is a projection; God is not a projection, God is the reality. And you have been missing it. You have been missing through the projections; you see something else, what you would like to see.
A woman doesn’t exist, a man doesn’t exist. Woman exists because you are sexual. If within you sex disappears, woman disappears. But there will be somebody – your wife will not simply disappear into thin air. She will be there but she will no longer be a wife, and she will not be a woman. Suddenly all projections disappear, and there is God. Your wife becomes a god, your child becomes a god, the tree becomes a god, the rock becomes a god. Existence is God. Existence is divine – but that you cannot see, because that is the screen on which your projections are being imposed.
That’s why buddhas have always said that if you have any desires you cannot know the truth – because your desire will color it. If you want to achieve something you will not be able to know reality. The very effort to achieve something – a desire – will color it. When you are desireless, when you are not in any way ambitious, when you are not moving to achieve something, when you are simply a being, totally still and quiet, then suddenly the reality appears to you.