There is no need to hesitate. Try what I am saying. Experiment with it and come to your own conclusions. But never believe. Experiment, experience, and your experience will prove the truth of what I am saying.
The third question:
I am a God fearing man, but you say that all fear has to be dropped. Is the fear of God also to be dropped?
Fear is fear. It does not matter of what, of whom. The object makes no difference. Your subjectivity is full of fear. And if you are God fearing you can never be God loving.
In all the languages of the world this ugly type of phrase exists: God fearing. This is ugly, because fear and love cannot exist together, like light and darkness. If there is fear you cannot love God God. How can you love GodGod if you are afraid of himhim? You may submit and surrender, but deep down there will be resistance, anger. Somewhere in your unconscious there will persist the idea of taking revenge. You cannot forgive a God of whom you are afraid.
And fear is just the opposite of love. Hate is not really the opposite of love. You will be surprised – fear is the exact opposite. Hate is love standing upside down. Fear is just the opposite. You cannot be afraid of God if you understand what God is. This total universe is God. In fact, there is no God as a person. The whole existence is permeated, overflowing, with a quality called godliness. It is in the flowers and in the grass and in the stars. It is in you: it is everywhere. The whole existence is made of the stuff called godliness. God is not a person. How can you be afraid?
And if you follow a religious life out of fear it will be the life of a slave, not of a man who is free. And if you start in fear you cannot end in freedom. You will end in slavery. And all that you will do out of fear is going to be wrong. It is going to be false, superficial.
The young couple were canoeing in the middle of the lake when a sudden squall hit.
Terrified at the intensity of the wind and rain, the boy started to pray: “O Lord, save us, and I’ll give up smoking…I’ll give up drinking…I’ll give up….”
At this moment the young lady yelled, “Don’t give up anything else! I think the storm is over!”
Out of fear nothing radical is possible.